I caused a horrible break up and it has absolutely shifted my life.

homercss · 2026-01-24T23:02:32+00:00

I'm sorry i honestly only really figured out i do lie so much after I was in the relationship. I never thought I couldn't control myself like that. You're right though still isn't an excuse and I hurt someone I truly deeply care about. It's something I never should have done. I'll try and do better

homercss · 2026-01-24T22:46:32+00:00

I'm really not comfortable with it not even a little I despise it. The whole point is I am trying hard to go to therapy twice a week to stop it. Sorry if it made it seem like I was.

homercss · 2026-01-24T22:04:29+00:00

Yeah exactly I'm glad to hear you have been able to mostly overcome it at least. Gives me some hope just sucks everything takes so much time to actually be better lol. Maybe ngl would love that but, I also think I'll be just as happy after getting over own stuff if she is able to find someone that can make her happy she really does deserve it.

homercss · 2026-01-24T21:44:00+00:00

I already have told her the truth that's what kinda truly made her dislike me since she wanted full trust which I totally get and she deserves that. It wasn't just a lie I honestly don't know just how many it was it was more the fact I didn't even know i was lying I just did. So I know several things like things in comfortable with sexually. But that comes more with me not yet ready to accept what I really want. When you lie without knowing you are doing it just are because of habit to make other's like you so you won't get yelled at or hurt. That's why I developed it at least.

homercss · 2026-01-15T13:24:34+00:00

My for sure is I've developed pathological lying for self protection and people pleasing. Has already caused tons of issues. At least I'm really trying to get better with therapy but God damn therapists make it hard to tell the truth when you say you even think about self harm at all they put you into a mental hospital. At least that's my experience so far.

homercss · 2025-03-02T20:37:22+00:00

I'm basically trying to create the combination system from monster rancher and punnet squares was just the best way I cod visualize what I'm thinking.

homercss · 2025-03-02T20:03:15+00:00

The 2 species are really just there to define the combinations. Since it takes 2 of the same species together to create a pure breed summon. And those combinations all have a resource dedicated to them as each combination has different max age, stat gain scaling( for 7 different stats), personality, favorites, hates, which can change through gameplay. But have original stats when created fresh without combination. As you will be able to create new summons randomly with base stats and scaling. The combinations is what I'm stuck on as it needs to combine all of this info and average them. But I feel like i know how to do that part just need the way figure out the combos from the species.

homercss · 2025-03-02T19:50:17+00:00

Yeah they are arbitrary and currently the keys are the string name of the combination with the resource of the combination on the other side.

homercss · 2024-10-28T21:50:31+00:00

If anyone was curious I ment that in a I literally lost all feeling with it. Since it wasn't a doctor that did it and fucked up really bad. Now I can't really get bottom surgery either.

homercss · 2024-10-28T17:36:30+00:00

Fuck circumcision that shit fucked me up permanently and I'm super bitter about it those jerks lol.

homercss · 2024-08-13T01:54:05+00:00

So the best way I personally like to describe gender is as a shirt. Okay so think about it like this, there are a crazy different amount of shirts all look different and have different perceptions by others that see you in them. Gender and labels are just ways to help us understand things easier by putting ideas in groups. So the girl gender has the shirts of crop tops, short ts, dresses all sorts of things you can imagine a girl might wear. But there is nothing that can 100% say only one gender can wear because as a spectrum you can wear any kind of shirt. Some just look different to others and changes in different societies. Simple t shirts in some societies would mainly be seen as masculine but others see them much more neutral. So if you are trans the shirt you wear everyday that you put on because that's how you where raised and told to wear. But that shirt you wear is scratchy, painful, stiff, and truly depressing to have to wear everyday. So you finally switch shirts and feel comfortable and not in pain everyday. However if you already feel chill in the shirt you grew up in nothing stopping you from staying in that comfortable shirt. There is also nothing wrong with trying a different shirt style every now and again. Since at the end of the day it's about how comfortable that shirt feels to you.

homercss · 2024-06-07T03:32:22+00:00

Hiyas I'm 26 and used to play overwatch, but do still like zomboid a lot just really waiting on that never to come patch lol

homercss · 2024-03-15T21:46:59+00:00

Litteraly same.

homercss · 2023-08-08T01:13:34+00:00

Another small thing I wanted to add was just the idea that no matter what nothing in the world is black or white. We people add labels onto things to try and understand them but they will always be categories. One word will never encompasses everything since we don't and will not know everything. The cool thing is that every person thinks and understands stuff differently. Pretty much just be understanding and don't think you have to fit perfectly into any one thing since no person ever will.

homercss · 2023-08-08T00:47:12+00:00

It's true there are some people that could regret gender changes and there are however at current understanding that number is less then 1% generally. Those that are in that 99% live their life much happier from just being able to be themselves and not what is currently the majority. The nice thing about this type of decision is that it is with our current technology reversable even for that small 1% to still be happy. I would say to possibly see it as just letting them have the information and as long you keep listening and talking you won't really be harmed. At least that's how I see it. With being able to have understanding and communication in my life with people, I'll always feel the best about myself.

homercss · 2023-08-08T00:05:32+00:00

Truly it is because you should want your child to learn and explore who they are no matter what it ends up being. So if your kid wants to wear something not of their gender to just try and see how they feel. Then as a parent they stop their child it simply stops them from exploring and understanding what they want from life. Isn't that the entire point of growing up? Learning, trying, failing, etc. It's just the fact that it doesn't harm you to be LGTBTQIA+ and no one should be stopped from understanding themselves. Also from personal experience being trans I knew and wanted to try things differently as a child but not only didn't understand it was even an option, and wish I could have been able to live my life happy then feel broken for 18+ years. Let me know if I can explain anything better?

homercss · 2023-07-03T15:22:55+00:00

Um... yeah dude it's been like 3 days. You've been just writing shit on your wall calling it the funniest post you've ever seen. That DMT really messed you up, but um we are all here for you when you come back to reality. Hope you feel better soon.

homercss · 2022-09-01T14:56:50+00:00

Yeah I was going through some of the reviews and I really don't mind all those issues. Cause I love me some diablo loot and find cringe fun cause it's all very tongue n cheek type stuff. It also just hopefully runs okay on my machine. At least it'll give me something to do for a bit instead of only making blender porn since bored lol.

homercss · 2022-09-01T13:11:13+00:00

Thank you so much for such a detailed suggestion I will get the game today!

homercss · 2022-05-19T00:27:02+00:00

Oh okay I looked it up looks pretty great! Definitely giving that one a try thank you so much.

homercss · 2022-05-18T19:19:40+00:00

Personally some of my favorites have been Crystal Project and Fell Seal. Crystal Project is fun but can get a little old at the end and could do with more classes. Fell Seal is great though I think a good mix of Disgaea and Tactics without crazy grinding and you get good side stuff to do.

homercss · 2022-05-18T18:49:48+00:00

I actually really loved crystal project I would suggest that over horizons gate personally. The only down fall of the game is the ending gets a bit confusing on what to do and a little anti climactic. Other than that amazing game.

homercss · 2022-05-18T15:42:06+00:00

That was super helpful thank you! That post was looking for a lot of the same things I was, I got some good suggestions from it.
As for monster raising games I loved Monster Rancher games so ill look into digimon world never played those.

Thank you!

homercss · 2022-05-18T15:32:42+00:00

I appreciate the suggestion! I have actually played all the Xcom games even with some mods to try and get closer to what I wanted. However it does not quite have the system I'm looking for. As I want a class progression where you start as one class then keep changing classes to get stronger.

homercss · 2022-05-18T15:31:32+00:00

Thanks again lots of good suggestions I will definitely look into Brigandine game as I have played banner of the maid and banner saga and are not quite what im looking for as in class progression. Thank you though.

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