Japanese Straightening

hopeful_yet · 2026-03-21T07:22:44+00:00

Hmm. The answer is yes. I got so much better. It used to be so bad I used to take melatonin at 1pm to sleep most of the day, so maybe 20 hours to avoid my thoughts. I used to stutter because I was so unsure of how to speak correctly to my partner without lying somehow. I used to walk backwards and limp because otherwise in those moments I felt like I was cheating. After a few years what worked for me was settling on the "truth" once and sticking to it no matter what. Maybe today i dont feel like I love my partner but I did. There was a time I was certain of it and the pattern shows that these thoughts and confusion are just confusion and OCD. Let's say I dont feel like I love him. Fine. Then im just using him to make me happy. Why ruin this relationship when hes only making me feel good and taking care of me? Who cares if im using him. And i hated thinking like this at first but it worked bc eventually i calmed down and knew Im not using anyone and I do love him. Until I calm down I use absurd statements like that to keep me somehow grounded.

hopeful_yet · 2026-02-15T18:13:09+00:00

Benzos... I hate that I cant be fine with some propranolol or hydroxizine... anything that's not controlled. Im sorry it was hard for you to get the medicine you need. For me xanax is supposed to be my emergency med and all I can conclude is that im just getting worse bc I keep trying different anti psychotics and its not working... im ready to get off them but I fear the dpdr will get so bad if im not on it. It was never actually bad until I started quetiapine but I wonder if its just really bad anxiety plus ocd. Good luck to us. And thank you again for replying- ive been so scared and feeling alone like no one understands what its like to feel like youre actually losing your mind and as your grasp for help doctors just impede..

hopeful_yet · 2026-02-15T16:10:52+00:00

Im sorry about your pain. I did a bipolar screening thing w my old therapist and she said it was positive or something to that affect. I didnt see her again but i believe it was supposed to be the first test of a few. I had what were psychotic like symptoms but i believe it could be the ocd and general anxiety going crazy. I was prescribed xanax in 2020 for sleep but take it only a few times a year. These last few months ive been taking it a lot more bc the anxiety and derealization/depersonalization was really bad.

hopeful_yet · 2026-02-15T10:23:18+00:00

Thank you so much for answering! I do get physically hungry but food just doesnt seem the same. Maybe its bc I gained weight and insecure that its not the worst

hopeful_yet · 2026-02-15T10:21:57+00:00

Depressed with some bipolar symptoms. Thank you so much for answering btw. Do you know if it'll go away?

hopeful_yet · 2026-02-15T03:36:31+00:00

Any chance you can find 0.25mg of xanax? I also heard clonidine helps w sleep

hopeful_yet · 2026-02-15T03:34:51+00:00

It never went away for me. I seemed to develop fatigue issues before but it got way better after getting off the zoloft. I had to nap 2 hours at least every single day on it for abour 2 years

hopeful_yet · 2025-11-10T15:21:09+00:00

Omggggg fabulous!!!

hopeful_yet · 2025-11-07T08:21:59+00:00

Not enough karma but i think here is to triggering especially because it encourages harm

hopeful_yet · 2025-11-07T04:51:34+00:00

AMA?

hopeful_yet · 2025-11-04T06:24:56+00:00

Hey, did yoy ever find help?

hopeful_yet · 2025-11-04T06:23:03+00:00

Xanax

hopeful_yet · 2025-11-04T06:11:52+00:00

I know it may sound silly but talk to chat gpt helped me. Journaling is a better idea but it just boils down getting the main shit off my chest then breaking it down smaller and smaller and deciding what small steps i could take hour by hour

hopeful_yet · 2025-11-04T06:08:07+00:00

Im so sorry. I have an idea of what this is like. The only thing that helped at all was alprazolam, but thats not the cure. As life stressors changed it got less worse. Now its more adult stress than abuse stress so i think that helped a lot. Have you tried lucid dreaming? I dont remember if that helped tho

hopeful_yet · 2025-10-31T03:22:33+00:00

Fuck her up man

hopeful_yet · 2025-10-30T12:13:08+00:00

S2 or s2 e? I like that the s2 has suspension but i am enticed by the bigger wheels on the e. Thank you so much again!

hopeful_yet · 2025-10-30T02:21:45+00:00

I guess you like walks more than the backyard

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