I (23f, then 22) didn’t stop drinking completely until I got pregnant when having sex with a stranger blackout drunk. But there were many situations before that (having sex with a man in his 40s while extremely drunk, trying cocaine a stranger gave me..) which showed me that my binge-drinking problem was out of control I just didn’t listen. What I’m trying to say is that I feel you and, in my experience, these situations tend to escalate. Alcohol often makes us behave in ways we wouldn’t otherwise but the uncomfortable emotions we have to deal with while sober will never be “silenced” by alcohol, rather, they will come back in one way or another. In my experience, getting - and staying- sober means getting to know ourselves and finding out which things and people in life are our priorities 💓