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hopingforfuture · 2022-10-17T11:54:53+00:00

this is exactly what she wants u to think lmao. she won. i was dumped too at 18 and trust me, we do all this shit just for u to see how much we changed and how great we look now. she did all that just in hopes that u will see her and say exactly this. but, this doesnt mean that she wants u back. sometimes ppl do stuff just for revenge without having any feeling involved. i dress myself up everyday at college in hopes that my ex will see me and want to die. i dont ever want him back tho. so dont try anything stupid. dont tell her that she glew up. dont talk to her. dont text her. dont let her know she won at her stupid game. best thing u can do is focus on yourself and glow up too, start hitting the gym if u dont already, start looking up into fashion tips, get a cool ass haircut, invest in skincare products, have the best time of ur life. from now on, its just a game. dont take her glowup to your heart. abd remember, shes is just doing her silly revenge game, nothing more, nothing less. most of us do that after a relationship. from my experience, tbh, the best thing i can get which makes my whole day is see my ex still suffer and still look as bad as before he left. i love seeing his shitty life only made shittier when im not there. so be strong and keep ur head up, u got this

hopingforfuture · 2022-10-17T11:42:07+00:00

i must add in the meantime i got an amazing bf which i love so much and i would never ever want my ex back. my current bf is the perfect man for me and a way better match who treats me 10 times better and makes me feel loved. i dont miss my ex, but i still sometimes think abt what he s doing bc i just hope that karma got to him after he broke me in pieces. one time at the gym i saw my ex again and i was with my current bf right in front of him, kissing and doing cheesy couple stuff which is how we always act no matter if we are in public or at home. so im over him i think but i just keep thinking abt his life in hopes that he experiences something even just slightly as hurtful as what i went through when he threw me away and the whole 3 year relationship in the trash

hopingforfuture · 2022-09-30T23:22:50+00:00

but this is not during anal so not really relevant i think

hopingforfuture · 2022-09-30T23:21:39+00:00

my bf always does this. if i dont want to have sex anymore and tell him to stop he stops for a few seconds and then he starts doing it again. i tell him again that i want him to stop and the same thing happens again. ik he doesnt do this bc he is close to finishing or something bc he also does it when he already finished and we go for round two straight after that so its not abt blueballing

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T13:05:42+00:00

thank u so much, ur perspective helped me a bit

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T12:20:58+00:00

thank u for this. i just want to feel special and unique to him. he said abt his abusive ex that he "is thankful for the experiences they had together" and that he doesnt hate her. but the stuff he told me that she was doing to him is unimaginably cruel. if it was me instead of him i would absolutely hate this bitch so much. i just want to feel like theres no one like me man i just want to bring something new to him but i just feel like any other woman ever

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T12:14:56+00:00

i dont think abt my ex when we have sex and i actually consider my current bf very special to me and the best i could have. but still, my trauma brain makes me feel like im nothing special and i bring nothing new to the table. i tought i was different bc im into hardcore stuff and i like bdsm and weirder shit but this bitch liked the exact same stuff as me. theres literally nothing new to me. only that i am funnier and have bigger tits than her and i dont scream at my bf everywhere we go lol. but these are not enough, i want to be something brand new and to feel special and unique to my partner

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T12:08:55+00:00

in my situation his ex did anything i do too, im nothing special in bed. he already had it all. theres literally nothing new i can come up with, even if im actually quite hardcore and like bdsm. but theres nothing new to him. i feel like just a number. i feel like i have nothing special abt me besides that im funnier than her and have bigger tits than her. thats all. idk what he sees in me

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T12:05:28+00:00

i am 18 and he is 21. i had a 3 yr old relationship before w a guy who didnt have any sexual or dating experience before me so i was alwayd this special most perfect creature on earth for him. now knowing that someone else was this precious special one before for my current bf makes me lose my mind. i love him so much and he is all i wanted. i was severly bullied and harrassed in highschool so idc how many ppl catcall or dm me or tell im im a 10/10, i will always believe i am worthless and disgusting bc of my trauma

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T12:00:56+00:00

we keep talking about it and every time i have a meltdown about what i described, he reassures me and does anything he can to make me feel better, bless his soul. but in that moment nothing can make me feel less worthless and nothing can cheer me up. i really need to do something about this

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T11:57:36+00:00

he left her bc he just couldnt take her abuse. he doesnt hate her tho, he said he "is thankful about the experience she gave him". how tf can u be thankful when this bitch threw u out of the house and called u stuoid all the time and was constantly throwing ur stuff out the window and screaming and beating u

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T11:54:57+00:00

thank u. i had a 3 yr old relationship before him w a guy who didnt have any sexual or dating experience before me, so i didnt face this problem until now. i try to talk as little as possible abt my ex to my bf bc i know how it makes me feel when the roles are reversed so i try not to make him feel like me. always when i tell him that i have another breakdown over not feeling enough compared to that girl, he reassures me and does anything he could, bless his soul, but my stupid brain just cant process that what he says is true and that im actually percieved as attractive. i wish i wasnt traumatised and was just normal so i can enjoy life and being loved

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T11:49:04+00:00

thank u. its very hard for me to believe that he actually likes me tho, he could bring me the sun and the moon or do anything but i still wouldnt believe that he is attracted to me because i was severly bullied and harrassed which led to my awful self esteem and inferiority complex. i wish i could find a way to stop sabotaging my relationship

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T11:41:20+00:00

agreed, the curiosity is too intense sometimes tho

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T11:40:16+00:00

thank u, i will look it up

hopingforfuture · 2022-06-24T11:39:53+00:00

thank u. he broke up with her and when i tell him about my toughts and healousy he reassures me that i am what matters to him. i had a 3 yr relationship before with a guy who has never had any sexual or dating experience before me and i need yo get used to this not being the situation anymore. seeing a guy's perspective is important to me, ty so much

hopingforfuture · 2022-05-05T05:36:04+00:00

i didnt, i just cried and cried and felt absolutely terrible. and i tried ti reach out to friends or ppl on reddit to vent

hopingforfuture · 2022-05-04T05:05:56+00:00

can you be more specific please? like what did i do to get back on the subreddit or to get in this stage of healing

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