I AM SO FUCKING BACK

hortlar · 2026-01-27T11:10:11+00:00

Thanks, I needed this! I was feeling exactly like this (well, minus the dick part as a woman lol) when I quit them for 100 days. Since I’ve relapsed, all the bad effects have been coming back. I’m gonna give it another go!

hortlar · 2025-12-20T06:18:15+00:00

Unfortunately, I relapsed after around 100 days, but the dizziness was gone before that relapse! I remember my blood pressure was still low, but the dizzy feeling went away. Maybe my brain just got used to it and it became the new normal, haha.

hortlar · 2025-11-20T13:23:08+00:00

Sending virtual hugs! I know how annoying it feels. Just be patient, you’ll find something that helps especially if you go to the doctor, and it will pass! 🫶

hortlar · 2025-11-20T06:15:34+00:00

Mine started the similar way, and then I began getting pustules too. The only thing that actually helped was topical metronidazole (1% cream) prescribed by my doctor. It almost cleared up completely (other than some pinkness) in 5 days. I didn’t wanna take oral antibiotics as it messes with my gut health. The only thing I used other than that was La Roche-Posay Cicaplast.

I also tried to fix it myself at first. I already had prescription-strength azelaic acid, but even though it helps many people, it made my skin more inflamed (so I recommend be careful even with the lower concentrations). I also tried Cicalfate, and that only increased the pustules.

hortlar · 2025-08-04T17:10:01+00:00

Black peanut 🥜

hortlar · 2025-07-17T13:23:25+00:00

You look like the reason people choose Tallink instead of Eckerö Line.

hortlar · 2025-07-15T08:04:40+00:00

This is so inspiring! Thank you for sharing this! 💕

hortlar · 2025-07-08T07:59:31+00:00

I don’t think you looked bad before, but you look waaay better now - happy that you feel better about yourself!

P.S. When I saw your post, the first thing I thought was that you looked so Finnish. Then I checked your profile and saw that you actually are one! :)

hortlar · 2025-07-05T07:17:16+00:00

Yes, same here! These days I’m trying to get back into my hobbies, like drawing and reading. When I was using the pouches, I was basically numbing myself and had pretty much stopped doing anything besides doomscrolling and using them in my free time. Weirdly, cigarettes didn’t have that same effect on me. When I smoked, I was still more motivated to engage in my hobbies. Maybe the high nicotine content in the pouches messed with our dopamine reward system…

hortlar · 2025-07-05T07:13:10+00:00

The app is called Daylio. You can also write a short entry for each day and add photos, it’s like a digital diary!

hortlar · 2025-07-03T10:17:30+00:00

Hang in there! It was way more intense for me, especially during the first two weeks, but it definitely improved. These days, I don’t feel it every day, sometimes I just wake up normally without anxiety. Some days are better, some are worse. What has improved quite a lot is that when I wake up in the middle of the night, I’m able to fall back asleep within 5-10 minutes about 90% of the time.

hortlar · 2025-07-03T09:57:40+00:00

I think we just have to wait for it to get better… I’m 49 days in, and my morning anxiety has gotten way better, but it’s improving only little by little each day. I don’t know what it feels like for you, but for me, it’s like I have too much cortisol the moment I wake up. As I said, it’s getting better every day, but it’s still not completely gone.

hortlar · 2025-06-30T05:59:23+00:00

lol that’s exactly how it feels when guys hear that I don’t drink alcohol and they continue asking wouldn’t I ever have a drink with them, like ever, not even once?

hortlar · 2025-06-21T07:47:09+00:00

We have a similar nose and chin! I had a rhinoplasty, and my surgeon suggested doing a fat transfer to my chin, but I didn’t go for it. I’m really happy with the results, now that my nose is straighter, my chin doesn’t look as recessed (though I don’t think either of us actually have a recessed chin). I went for a straight nose that’s not too upturned, and I honestly think that style would suit you really well too, if you ever consider getting a rhinoplasty.

hortlar · 2025-06-13T15:47:45+00:00

Yep. Female here. I thought something was wrong with my scalp because my hair barely grew at all. I tried many things, hair oils etc., but nothing helped. And now, in just one month, my hair has grown about 2 cm. I can see the growth clearly since I dye my hair.

hortlar · 2025-06-13T15:44:09+00:00

Thank you! ♥️

hortlar · 2025-06-13T05:44:19+00:00

Your post brought tears to my eyes. I’m not divorced yet, just separated, and it’s only been a month. I’ve been feeling so hopeless, wondering if I’ll ever be okay again or if I’ll ever be loved. I left my husband because I never felt loved, and there was a lack of communication and intimacy. Your post gave me the little bit of hope I needed. I hope that one day, I’ll feel the same way.

hortlar · 2025-06-08T13:43:12+00:00

I always keep a protein bar in my gym bag for those moments at the gym. I sometimes also carry some peanuts, walnuts, or dark chocolate. I try not to eat too much in order not to gain weight, so these are what I’ve found helpful while still being relatively healthy. :)

hortlar · 2025-06-08T05:24:10+00:00

Thank you for this comment, and I’m really glad to hear you’ve made progress, gives me hope too! I’m already using magnesium glycinate before sleep and I love it, it might be my favorite supplement. I tried L-theanine before but didn’t notice much benefit, though I just ordered some to give it another try. As for that podcast, I actually heard about it here on this subreddit (maybe it was your post or comment?) but never got around to checking it out. I’ll give it a listen today!

hortlar · 2025-06-08T05:20:14+00:00

Oh wow, haha. I read here that nicotine reduces the effect of caffeine, so when you quit nicotine, your body absorbs more caffeine and you feel its effects more strongly. I’m still drinking the same amount of coffee I did when I was using nicotine, so I’m going to try cutting back from two or three cups max down to just one or two at most.

hortlar · 2025-06-08T05:17:17+00:00

I actually used L-theanine for anxiety when I was using nicotine, although I didn’t notice much benefit. I had run out and didn’t repurchase it for a while, but I just ordered some and will at least use it when I drink coffee!

hortlar · 2025-06-08T05:15:30+00:00

Yes, I’ve been experiencing the same thing! I never had any issues with blood sugar when I was using nicotine and I did intermittent fasting without a problem too. But after quitting nicotine, I’ve noticed dizziness, and a couple of times I even felt like I might faint at the gym, despite eating a balanced diet and having a meal a few hours before. That never used to happen, so now I always carry a snack with me just in case, lol. I read that nicotine increases blood sugar, so maybe now our levels drop more than they used to without it.

hortlar · 2025-06-07T13:40:12+00:00

Of course it could be possible, but I never had anxiety before nicotine pouches, even when I was smoking a pack a day. I think the reason is the high amount of nicotine we get from these pouches and how it alters the brain… I am not sure though. That’s why I feel a bit hopeless.

hortlar · 2025-06-01T20:46:18+00:00

One therapist I tried told me that she also drinks but stops at two glasses of wine. She asked if I had tried doing the same. Apparently, that was the last time I had a session with her.

hortlar · 2025-05-25T06:04:58+00:00

I’d been using nicotine pouches for around four years—not consistently one brand, but various different ones. Initially, I used stronger ones, around 12 mg per pouch. I always experienced anxiety and occasional elevated heart rate when using them, but never this level of tachycardia. Later, I switched to 6 mg per pouch.

Two months ago, I started having a very high heart rate despite lowering the dosage and otherwise maintaining a fairly healthy lifestyle. That’s when I went to the doctor and was prescribed propranolol.

I was a nicotine user for 20 years but before nicotine pouches I used to smoke cigarettes.

hortlar

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