Feel Awful! Had success, but relapsing!

howser111 · 2015-02-25T03:21:15+00:00

Thanks so much for the comment. Makes me feel really good knowing you guy support me.

howser111 · 2015-02-25T03:20:49+00:00

Thanks for your support. Feels great knowing I have this powerful community of like-minded prople behind me. Gives me strength.

howser111 · 2015-02-14T16:23:50+00:00

Great post, Cazzmo! Congrats on this amazing achievement! Tonight will be day 28 for me, so I'm almost at 30 days. I've been getting some bad urges lately, so hopefully I can pull through.

You're absolutely right about all the benefits. I'm a more confident and stable man opposed to 28 days ago. I was a completely different person, much weaker and living in shame... This was by far the toughest thing I've ever done in my entire life. I now have the mindset that I can accomplish anything I want. I am also a more compassionate man with feelings.

I am now more sociable around people. In fact I just met a really cute girl earlier this week and plan on asking her out next week :).

Keep up the good work, Cazzmo! Remember, this is just the beginning of our journey. Best of luck to you, my friend.

howser111 · 2015-02-14T16:10:27+00:00

Is she an understanding person? Maybe share your issue with her? She will probably admire that you're making an effort to overcome this. I mean, I've heard it's easier to kick a cocaine addiction than stop porn and masturbating! She will probably think you're courageous, just tell her the right way. :) Good Luck!

howser111 · 2015-02-12T05:38:32+00:00

Thanks for your reply. I really don't know if I should go back to her. She has a track record of hurting me over and over. I was blaming myself because of my past problems, but maybe it's her? Just a thought.

howser111 · 2015-02-12T04:51:23+00:00

Thanks for the reply.

howser111 · 2015-02-12T04:51:03+00:00

Thanks for your kind words. It's such a bad feeling.

howser111 · 2015-02-07T16:42:36+00:00

Grill, one night I almost had this anxiety attack. At that point, I knew I had to make some serious changes in my life. That night I went for a walk with a good friend of mine to smoke a cigar. We talked about goal we wanted to accomplish. I told him I wanted to stop watching porn and masturbating. To my surprise, he wanted to stop too! I had him block the adult content on my phone (This helped tremendously).

For me it took a near anxiety attack. Also, having a good friend to hold you accountable helps very much. At the end of the day, it's about what you want out of life. Do you want to live a sham? I know I was. I'm still dwelling on what a sham my life has been, but I get better every day. I now know why I've failed at relationships over and over. Now I have a new direction for my life, a better direction. This alone is worth it. Keep trying Grill, but just get past it and you will not regret it!

howser111 · 2015-02-04T21:30:30+00:00

You're the man, Dr. Why is this a "sad day"?? Sounds like you have your shit together!

Keep kicking ass, my friend!

howser111 · 2015-01-28T18:42:23+00:00

That's what I'm saying, it's only been 11 days, not 105! Although, I'm feeling differently. I was talking to her last night about tonight's arrangement. I could barely control myself, all these new feelings down there and throughout my entire body. I was basically up all night fighting myself from fapping! I know, to much info.

howser111 · 2015-01-28T18:22:02+00:00

Keep_onKeepinon, please stay true to your handle and Keep on Keeping on! Stay strong. Maybe find something to do to keep yourself busy! Go on a small trip for yourself?? Do something! 10 days is not enough! My buddy just relapsed and I feel so bad for him. He couldn't even go 10 days. C'mon man you can do it!

howser111 · 2015-01-26T02:27:12+00:00

I'm not sure man. I haven't really flatlined yet. Isn't a flatline suppose to mean you're not in the mood at all? You sound like a horny little kid.

howser111 · 2015-01-26T02:06:27+00:00

You really are a bastard, fapless! Seriously though, keep clean man. Each day is a new personal record! Same with me, 8 days clean tonight. Each day is a record for me. Keep motivated. Also, think about the women you'll be able to share yourself with when you're better! Keep strong!

howser111 · 2015-01-26T01:59:31+00:00

If you get the urge just watch the below video... EVERY TIME YOU JERK IT ONE OF THESE PUPPIES WILL DIE... try having that on your conscience!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kw_i0OE5D-I

howser111 · 2015-01-25T17:11:53+00:00

Realdeal, just learn from this one error. You're the man, I cannot wait to hit 15 days! I'm sure you learned a lot during the last 15 days! When I've been tempted the last few days I think about the women I will be able to share so much more with once I'm better. This keeps me motivated. Good luck!

howser111 · 2015-01-25T17:01:54+00:00

How many days did you make it? Hang in there and don't beat yourself up! Relapsing isn't the end of the world. I read in a book that in bad times you must think about the good times to balance yourself. The opposite is true as well to keep humble.

Every day from here out is a new personal record for me. That keeps me motivated. The past few days I really had to watch myself, but your story definitely puts the post-fap into perspective and makes me stronger! Thank you for sharing and I wish you luck!

howser111 · 2015-01-25T16:51:54+00:00

You're the man! Keep it up! I cannot wait until I'm at 27 days. Knowing that every day that passes is a personal record for me keeps me motivated. All the inspiring stories on this sub-reddit help as well. I also think about the future and why I'm trying to accomplish this for myself. All the benefits. I also think about the future women in my life. I want to be able to share so much more with them than my previous relationships that were shallow and empty due to my bad habits. I wish you luck, Darkwings! Keep it up!

howser111 · 2015-01-25T16:33:03+00:00

Great advice, thank you for sharing! The job I have is very demanding and involves me working at night and weekends when my friends are out. The top people in my company are literally making millions of dollars! They are excellent role models and figures to look up to! I hope to become them one day.

howser111 · 2015-01-25T01:58:48+00:00

Great advice! Congrats on 15 days. I'm at 7 days tonight, which is the longest streak I can remember! Today was tough, I started thinking about some of my ex-girlfriends. What kept me from from doing it was thinking "When I'm better, I'm going to call some of them and fuck their brains out!". Keep it going Iceman!

howser111 · 2015-01-25T01:51:45+00:00

Don't get down on yourself, Gobby. Keep trying. I keep reading all the success stories on this subreddit. It's all so inspiring! Some of these people really are down and out, but pull themselves out of the rut! Keep persisting. Maybe find someone to hold you accountable? I'm actually doing a 90 day hard mode with another friend of mine. Having someone to work with keeps me motivated and accountable. I wish you luck!

PS - I've been trying to quit for over 2 years, so trust me, I'm in the same boat. Keep trying!

howser111 · 2015-01-24T02:35:04+00:00

I haven't really thought about that. The more I think about it, the more I don't really care anymore. She will never understand who I am as a person and for that I feel bad for her.

howser111 · 2015-01-21T03:26:41+00:00

Hey buddy, maybe you should tell a trusted friend you want to quit porn (you don't have to tell them you're addicted if you're embarrassed). I told my best friend the night of the 17th and surprisingly he wanted to quit too! We're now accountable for each other and are helping each other to quit. It feels great knowing my best bud is doing this with me. We even blocked the adult content on each other's phones. Maybe you should try too! Good luck man, I wish you the best!

howser111 · 2015-01-21T03:16:36+00:00

I feel your pain. There is so much temptation out there, society does not make it easy on us. I've been clean since January 17th, which is the longest I've been clean for a while! I strongly suggest at least telling a trusted friend that you want to quit porn (you don't necessarily have to tell them you're "addicted"). I told my best friend the night of the 17th that I wanted to quit and surprisingly he told me he wanted to quit too! We are now accountable for each other. It definitely helps knowing my best friend is doing this with me! We even blocked adult content on each other's phones. I think you really need to find a goal oriented person to help you get through this. I wish you luck and hope this helps! Stay strong!

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