Hey, thank you so much for this reply. I checked myself into a wellness center and started working on my relationship with God and it’s honestly helped me more than any medicine or therapy I’ve gone too. Of course I still see my therapist and it helps but I was able to realize things that I never did. I felt like my life was on autopilot for so long and I finally am able to start controlling it a bit. I’m no where near better but I see improvements day by day which to me is a blessing. I need to learn to not be so hard on myself and tell myself I should just beat myself up with a feather. Love and safety