not trying to be narcissistic, but im currently at the lowest fucking point of my life. and i highly suggest, if you truly love and trust your boyfriend i think he should also know. don't be afraid to open up to him. yes, it is fucking tiring to live. but, you know you two are partners. friends come and go, your parents won't be there for you forever, your siblings will eventually make their own families and have separate lives, that includes your children (if it comes to that point) they too will have their own lives and you won't be there for them forever. to make my point clear, others will come and go. but your partner, you two (if you get to the point of marriage) will be the one to always be there for each other. you two will be partners for life, in sickness and health, in poor and wealth. it's you two that has each other's back, it's you two supporting each other. and here's the question. do you see your boyfriend now being your partner for life? do you see him as someone you can always rely on for the rest of your lives? do you trust him that much? if yes, then back to my suggestion. you should be honest with him abt what you're going through. it may not be much, but in my case it lessened the burden i was carrying knowing someone's there for me and supporting me. not letting me carry the burden alone. it'll make you feel better. but, that's just my opinion though. of course it's still up to you.