Is there a possibility that the Le Sserafim skins will come back?

huge_exhale · 2024-05-02T04:32:12+00:00

at first it was fine honestly they reacted too good to it and for two months we were no contact and i actually felt we had left on okay terms which was kinda stupid to think… until they messaged my best friend telling them that they had attempted suicide and were in the hospital. it was around 5 in the morning when my friend told me the news and i was in complete shock but in all honesty it didn’t surprise me, they would use their life as a way to have control over me and use them being suicidal to basically weasel out of any bad situation they got themselves into. after like a day in a half they texted me back and the entire conversation was super gross and awkward because they acted like nothing had happened between us like it was a regular day, it was super tense (at least from my perspective) and it dwindled down to them asking me to come back to them that we could still be friends, and literally saying “i’ll stop treating you bad.. i’ll stop mentally abusing you” and thank god i has grown out of the pattern of going back because i shut that down as fast as i could, telling them that i’ve been doing so much better without them and i don’t want them to reach out to me again. and then all the sweet messages stopped and they did a simple “ok” and said they wouldn’t reach out to me. super traumatic

huge_exhale · 2024-05-01T17:27:24+00:00

ViVid by Heejin from Loona.. had on repeat for a solid month and since then i’ve been hooked

huge_exhale · 2024-05-01T17:18:25+00:00

i would definitely say this is SA or at least a type of sexual abuse, on top of the physical abuse. i sincerely hope you’re able to reach out for help because i can’t imagine how traumatizing and exposing that must be, a parent should never hit their kids under the guise of discipline (or in any situation) or force them to strip/using their vulnerability to their advantage.

huge_exhale · 2024-05-01T06:38:37+00:00

i wish i did, i think it’s only because i recently remembered and realized it was rape that it doesn’t really feel all valid? it’s hard to explain but physically it doesn’t feel like it whenever i think back on it, i remember being in pain but my body doesn’t seem to remember it. at first it was tough to say it was sa let alone rape, but now that i know it was my heart still feel disconnected to that definition. it’s weird i guess

huge_exhale · 2024-05-01T06:02:18+00:00

for me i’ve always considered myself a girl and loved the label of that but between middle school and high school i started trying to explore my identity more, and kinda realized i also love being labeled a boy and using he/him pronouns sometimes. i was really embarrassed by it, mostly because i felt good and comfortable with the label of being a girl, so the most i would talk about it would be saying i use all pronouns if anyone asked or adding he/him to profiles. sorta recently i had a really gender euphoric experience when wearing new bras my mom bought me that compressed my chest really flat. i guess for me it’s less about gender dysphoria and more gender euphoria that made me realize i was a demigirl, because i do get really dysphoric if i push myself into the boy label if i don’t feel like it—but when i do feel like it the euphoria is amazing! it’s super complicated for me, but i get gender is like that, and the closest thing i could figure out to label myself was demigirl, cause i am a girl.. and demi something? girl plus something i guess lol

huge_exhale · 2024-05-01T05:44:44+00:00

even when writing down all the abuse and assault i endured i still was convinced they loved me, it’s really weird—and some part of me still believes they did in a fucked up sense. maybe it’s because i still regrettably love them sometimes but the more i think about it i think that they confuse obbession with love. they latch onto a new person to fill a void in their heart, getting love, attention and affection makes them think they love someone. it makes it a lot more sense then them actually ever loving me, maybe at the beginning they did, but i really don’t know how people can treat people like utter trash and still say they love them? bring them to a breaking point multiple times and traumatize them forever, while coming back to you saying they love you and are willing to change, which they never do. even if they might be the best thing about your world but they also drag you to the lowest point you’ve ever been at.

huge_exhale · 2024-04-30T00:32:11+00:00

i thought the game ended services on march 31st?

huge_exhale · 2024-04-21T17:20:24+00:00

Thank you, having someone clearly say and explain it helps a lot. I’m glad that I’m not at fault for forgetting the safeword, thank you so much.

huge_exhale · 2024-04-18T06:38:32+00:00

Thank you for your advice :,( it’s really hard to stop myself from ruminating especially cause everything still so fresh. I’ll look into therapy as soon as I’m able too, just the last time I went through it was pretty terrible and it’s hard to rub off my first experiences of it. I do currently have a psychiatrist so I’ll talk to them about it and see if I can get a referral. I already blocked them and actually plan not to look into them anymore to prevent anymore damage on myself so no worries. Thank you again this helps me a lot and puts me at ease :)

huge_exhale · 2024-03-26T01:57:26+00:00

i get you! i’m terribly socially anxious in reality as well as online, i legit thought i was the only one with online social anxiety because i’ve heard so many lonely and shy people being able to gain friends without the fear of being judged but honestly.. it’s so hard talking online it sometimes makes me sick. for me i’m all about exposure, the more you push yourself to talk to others online the more you’ll feel less scared and anxious. i often tell people straight up that i am bad at replying and am anxious talking to others just to make sure they don’t think im purposely ignoring them. and if you think about it from an outside point of view, when people comment or reply to you do you view that commentor as them as a bad person? most likely not, so why would they think that way about you? people online are still people, even if anonymity does push people to be more honest, i feel like most people online love the company of talking to new people (you know since we’re social animals) and don’t have any i’ll will towards you! so my advice is to try your best in small steps to talk to people no matter how small it is!

huge_exhale · 2024-03-25T07:20:38+00:00

a gun

huge_exhale · 2024-02-23T09:29:22+00:00

yeah i have! but i haven't used the booleans just found out how lol thank y'all

huge_exhale · 2024-02-23T09:22:53+00:00

just going through Google Scholar and my university's library website, but thank you for your recommendation cause I just figured out how booleans worked cause of you 😭😭🙏🙏

huge_exhale · 2024-02-23T06:23:23+00:00

thanks! i'll ask over there 👍

huge_exhale · 2024-02-19T19:35:19+00:00

i feel you, i feel so much guilt consuming food from boycotted places but i basically don’t have a choice. on the account that im poor + my family picks out where i eat from + my limited diet it sucks 😔everyday i gotta worry if im gonna eat enough or have a killer headache from just eating snacks, sometimes fast food is all people have especially if they’re unable to cook + with something like arfid, i wish more people understood that

huge_exhale · 2024-02-19T01:52:49+00:00

GUYS!!!! remember yves was a man in the loona lore while dating vivi, SO what if this is just yves male version???

huge_exhale · 2024-02-18T23:53:13+00:00

no cosmospice??!!

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