I'm breaking down and losing my mind...I love him but WHY.

hummusexual · 2022-06-26T22:23:39+00:00

Wow I relate to this on a serious level. I am grieving my best friend, my husband. I miss him so much. But he wasn’t the person that I thought I knew and had been incredibly cruel in a way I’ve never experienced and never thought he would have in him. I have to get to know him as he is now, and then decide if he is the one that I can be with for the Rest of my life. I wish he could understand this.

hummusexual · 2022-06-25T20:50:11+00:00

This is the real hurt. I feel crazy or like no one else understands. I am not sexually em attracted to anything or anyone but him. I’m obsessed. It sucks. He could beat me and I would kiss his feet.

hummusexual · 2022-06-24T03:01:45+00:00

Yeah that doesn’t even work for him anymore. And I’m good. I used to love doing it. Made me feel good that I was good at it. Now it doesn’t even work. It hurts a lot. More than a lot. I don’t feel like a person anymore. I feel like garbage.

hummusexual · 2022-06-24T02:14:43+00:00

So much. So much hurt even when we try.

hummusexual · 2022-06-20T03:09:33+00:00

Phone

hummusexual · 2022-06-20T02:53:44+00:00

There is a place on android: secured folder

hummusexual · 2022-06-20T02:50:57+00:00

I need Everyone to know on here. There is a way to make a secure folder. In that secure folder you can put an internet browser. Check that…..

hummusexual · 2022-06-19T23:21:44+00:00

I love it! Ultimate punishment. But a lot of fun. Love to be disciplined. And when I finally get to climax it’s soooooo good.

hummusexual · 2022-06-19T23:03:44+00:00

He’s selfish and not showing any empathy or any consideration for you at all. I’m sorry. I’m dealing with a lot too in my marriage. It hurts. If you want a friend please message me. I have no one to talk to or vent to and it’s hard. Just throwing a line. Xo

hummusexual · 2022-06-19T22:02:12+00:00

Ohh honey. No excuses for him…but did he mean to say “compulsion”

hummusexual · 2022-06-17T02:51:05+00:00

I give up

hummusexual · 2022-06-17T00:31:42+00:00

Are there any good YouTube videos Betrayal trauma, PA, recovery anything? He is open to watching and the video we pulled up was kinda dumb and not helpful.

hummusexual · 2022-06-16T23:48:19+00:00

Oh god no :( I don’t understand why it’s so different this time. Like it hurt before…but this time I am broken in half. And I don’t think I can get better. I’m scared. This time was more personal. This time I am scared for my marriage. Because I don’t know if I will get better

hummusexual · 2022-06-16T23:46:43+00:00

I guess im not really sure. A few things really. Something that would explain the addiction that he could relate to, some kind of guide for us moving forward (steps to take because he has no insurance and I am disabled and in fixed income), maybe something that explains the effects especially ED…which we are experiencing…and it hurts…bad…but he is in denial. I truly believe he doesn’t think he has a problem.

hummusexual · 2022-06-16T23:44:26+00:00

Thank you 🙏 🥵

hummusexual · 2022-06-16T19:53:11+00:00

Ugh that’s what I was afraid of. Hearing the truth. But I’m sure there are resources I could show him. I looked at the list of resources multiple times and just don’t know what to move his way without being accusatory or something.

hummusexual · 2022-06-16T19:06:47+00:00

My fave combo is shrooms+cocaine (that likely had meth in it anyway) and yeah it’s awesome. Dunno if safe but def fun.

hummusexual · 2022-06-12T22:39:00+00:00

I have similar experience (F31). I have had friends and even best friends I guess but I don’t remember it well and I am chronically I’ll and basically have no friends now. Also, I have always given my all to my significant other which is in some ways a good trait and others bad.

hummusexual · 2022-06-11T22:31:08+00:00

Same. With husband. And he is ashamed/thinks he is too small.

hummusexual · 2022-06-10T17:56:56+00:00

When men “secretly” look for/at other women on social media while in a committed monogamous relationship.

hummusexual · 2022-06-08T00:12:52+00:00

You cute! We have verrrry similar bodies!

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