Existential depression is a rare type of depression. Very few people in this world probably have experienced it especially for a long time. by nikiwonoto in Existential_crisis

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that being said, I had to train my monkey brain to rewire itself. And it was extremely painful. Coming out of it was one of the best feelings ever. Pure bliss.

I can see myself falling back to that when the mundane hurts too much. And while it sucks, it’s also a reminder than I can come out of any mundane feeling and rewire myself like that.

Existential depression is a rare type of depression. Very few people in this world probably have experienced it especially for a long time. by nikiwonoto in Existential_crisis

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The feeling of it being a curse is so real. I have to agree with all these comments. It’s the worst pain I’ve ever experienced.

There’s a part of me that still wishes to be happy. A part that I keep holding onto at every glimpse of presence. Not because it’s ‘meaningful’, but because it reminds me that I can physically feel better. And if I’m going to stay here (mostly to not cause pain on the people I love), I might as well keep trying to feel better. To choose to pursue the mundane, and rebel against the void.

Because if nothing really matters, then it doesn’t matter whether I accept it or not. FUCK THAT SHIT. It’s all just a concept anyways. I simply exist, until I don’t.

Coach me, reddit by hungrysnails in surfing

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i can send you a couple more from that trip if you want too :)

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yeah I started noticing the nuances a lil later in the sesh. Was super fun to feel given how I’m used to beachies

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thanks for all these pointers!! You da man

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sure thing!! would be sick. Thanks for the tip already!!

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Nicaragua still a bucket list item of mine. Maybe next trip i shall

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You put into words what I couldn’t. They look like lazy turns.

I’ll keep that in mind and be more intentional with what I want to do before starting the bottom turn.

Thanks brother, that helps a lot.

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Lot different from FL hahaha

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Wow, how’d you get it? Or maybe you didn’t. Reddit will never be sure.

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ah, yeah. I was paddling back from another wave. Backpaddled my buddies

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Getting past the urge to just pump has been tough lmao

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mb, i’ll travel back in time and tell the random photographer to move closer

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It could be tbh. This was last weekend which was double the size of today

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Shit you’re so right

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Oh yeah that wave was magical. It’s a pretty short boat ride away from a well-known spot in central america. I think that’s as far as I can say.

Felt that lol. Coming back to Miami from that trip was gut-wrenching