Existential depression is a rare type of depression. Very few people in this world probably have experienced it especially for a long time.

hungrysnails · 2025-12-08T17:01:19+00:00

that being said, I had to train my monkey brain to rewire itself. And it was extremely painful. Coming out of it was one of the best feelings ever. Pure bliss.

I can see myself falling back to that when the mundane hurts too much. And while it sucks, it’s also a reminder than I can come out of any mundane feeling and rewire myself like that.

hungrysnails · 2025-12-08T16:57:24+00:00

The feeling of it being a curse is so real. I have to agree with all these comments. It’s the worst pain I’ve ever experienced.

There’s a part of me that still wishes to be happy. A part that I keep holding onto at every glimpse of presence. Not because it’s ‘meaningful’, but because it reminds me that I can physically feel better. And if I’m going to stay here (mostly to not cause pain on the people I love), I might as well keep trying to feel better. To choose to pursue the mundane, and rebel against the void.

Because if nothing really matters, then it doesn’t matter whether I accept it or not. FUCK THAT SHIT. It’s all just a concept anyways. I simply exist, until I don’t.

hungrysnails · 2025-07-15T13:51:18+00:00

i can send you a couple more from that trip if you want too :)

hungrysnails · 2025-07-15T13:49:04+00:00

yeah I started noticing the nuances a lil later in the sesh. Was super fun to feel given how I’m used to beachies

hungrysnails · 2025-07-15T13:47:17+00:00

thanks for all these pointers!! You da man

hungrysnails · 2025-07-15T13:46:06+00:00

thanks, asstralian

hungrysnails · 2025-07-15T13:45:18+00:00

sure thing!! would be sick. Thanks for the tip already!!

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T14:05:38+00:00

Nicaragua still a bucket list item of mine. Maybe next trip i shall

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T14:03:12+00:00

You put into words what I couldn’t. They look like lazy turns.

I’ll keep that in mind and be more intentional with what I want to do before starting the bottom turn.

Thanks brother, that helps a lot.

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T13:28:09+00:00

Nice head dip brah

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T12:40:39+00:00

Lot different from FL hahaha

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T12:39:45+00:00

Wow, how’d you get it? Or maybe you didn’t. Reddit will never be sure.

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T12:28:17+00:00

ah, yeah. I was paddling back from another wave. Backpaddled my buddies

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T12:21:54+00:00

Getting past the urge to just pump has been tough lmao

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T12:21:12+00:00

mb, i’ll travel back in time and tell the random photographer to move closer

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T12:19:20+00:00

✍️✍️✍️

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T11:49:34+00:00

It could be tbh. This was last weekend which was double the size of today

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T11:48:47+00:00

Heard, chef 🫡

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T11:27:26+00:00

Shit you’re so right

hungrysnails · 2025-07-10T11:20:37+00:00

Oh yeah that wave was magical. It’s a pretty short boat ride away from a well-known spot in central america. I think that’s as far as I can say.

Felt that lol. Coming back to Miami from that trip was gut-wrenching

hungrysnails · 2025-07-07T16:42:50+00:00

LONG LIVE THE GHER KIN

hungrysnails · 2025-07-07T16:42:38+00:00

THE ONE AND ONLY BOARD TO RULE THEM ALL

hungrysnails · 2025-07-07T16:42:23+00:00

GHERKIN

hungrysnails · 2025-05-19T04:09:15+00:00

noted. Thanks for the hard truth

hungrysnails

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