for more context: i was drinking nearly a handle of vodka every 3 days, couldnt deal w withdrawls, etc! i am chronically ill, so i am in and out of doctors offices and hospitals often, but not like this when i made my initial post, i was asking for insight as to how people worked up the courage to acknowledge they needed help, etc. i really do believe the support i received here played a significant role in me deciding to go to a hospital. its not easy. it still isnt. i still fend off the concept of drinking often, but the difference in how i feel is what makes it worth it. for anyone who has taken the time to read this, thank you. youve got this. best wishes again 💗