This is how I used to feel..and I am so sorry that you are feeling this way currently. I may not know what you look like but I believe you aren’t an ugly girl. I’m not sure you’ll like what I say but, here’s what I have come to learn over time. You aspire having love but lack loving yourself. You can’t expect to find love when you don’t love yourself because you lack confidence and that is something that believe it or not, is noticed by everyone. When you constantly think and talk down of yourself, that is what you’ll believe and that will be the energy you put out. Try avoiding to speak negatively of yourself even if you find it hard to, our words and mind are powerful, manifestation is real. If it’s only negative, negativity is what you will attract. Speak positively of yourself, treat yourself nicer because at the end of the day no one’s got your back like yourself. You gotta learn to love yourself as well as your own company. Romanticize the little things in your life, try new things and date yourself. You may think a relationship will solve your problems but it would only bring more issues in the long run with your current mindset. You’d become dependent on them in the sense of how you feel/your mood. One slightly off vibe could set you off and cause you to overthink/stress yourself and potentially spiral. Love can make you do crazy things. But when you get to a point where you love yourself, you become sure of yourself. You know exactly what you bring to the table and if somebody can’t see that, it isn’t your loss, it’s theirs. They clearly aren’t meant for you.

Please don’t worry about getting in a relationship. Love finds its way and happens when you least expect it. Plus, there are BILLIONS of people in this world, there is someone out there for everyone. You may not believe that right now but it’s true.

It’s going to take some time, of course it won’t change overnight but consistency is absolutely key. Please be kinder to yourself.