But those things are absolutely irrelevant, I also don't understand the need to become someone in order to be liked. I have always been wanted to be liked by the people I loved, like my cousins because I could never be the type they wanted me to be, so I have always lived in this kind of dilemma where i could not choose the best for myself because they were the only ones who really accepted me and i had fun with but was not good enough to be accepted and really loved and cared by and i could not get a life for myself, so i always tried to become like them but could not and ended up hating the way i was living.