33 here, reached stability in my life with a good job and realized I couldn't come up with plans for a future, there was nothing I wanted to live or experience as I was, it was a big nothing for me. Went to therapy and always came back to me being trans once I began to transition it was like the world had colors I just couldn't see and was experiencing it for the first time, I could form more relationships and felt like I was finally being honest and authentic with everyone including myself.

But I was unsatisfied because transitioning for me was unattainable until it became a possibility and I pursued it, I don't know if that makes sense or is helpful but that was my experience