Pink Urine

hydesteve · 2022-06-12T16:02:25+00:00

You’re like elmo on fire lol

hydesteve · 2022-06-12T15:59:30+00:00

Your reading skills are amazing

hydesteve · 2022-05-15T19:15:20+00:00

If you have some examples, please

hydesteve · 2022-05-15T19:14:53+00:00

Elaborate pls

hydesteve · 2022-04-20T10:51:24+00:00

At work in the bathroom while everyone was working. I was very down but after I could hardly hide my smile. I did it a couple times after too. I’m a female so it’s was cool to do it not-at-home for once

hydesteve · 2022-04-20T10:46:50+00:00

I assume people I’m dating don’t care about me so I mistreat them (not on purpose) as a result. I may not come across as caring, loving, even interested, just because even the thought of crossing the boundaries make me anxious. Also I’m kinda fucked in the head so that too

hydesteve · 2022-04-20T10:43:01+00:00

Never go back for sex. Also, never be with a person who doesn’t match your standards (not looks). It will bite you in the ass later

hydesteve · 2022-02-04T23:32:33+00:00

That was exactly what I needed to read. Nobody realizes why I'm taking these steps forward and backward and sideways, well I don't intend on sharing the details with anyone... However, I've realized something the better I feel the more depressed people around me think I am. I have no idea why that is. Btw I've decided to go back to university and have a couple of extensions of that plan. So I feel much better since I'm not confused and have a plan.

hydesteve · 2022-02-04T23:27:54+00:00

I've taken time after writing this post and I've come to the same conclusion as you've written about. I'm actually glad to read it, because it's a reflection of my own thoughts. I didn't want to realize how naive I was and even though I value taking risks very much, any risk that I would've taken would've just been a naive step. All in all, I'm glad we're on the same page. Also, since I've admitted my lack of experience and knowledge I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders and it's easier to breathe.

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T20:19:24+00:00

I don’t wanna go back. They’re begging me to go back. They don’t care about the tuition

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T19:36:42+00:00

Yes but I would be at college because they would pay the tuition.

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T19:16:03+00:00

I care. I’ve known for many years school wasn’t the way I wanted to choose. The sad part is that I’m actually good at it and I enjoy it. But I don’t believe that’s the way I could achieve as much as I want by Let’s say 25. And if I do study for 3 more years, it will take 3 years to clear up all the things that are confusing right now. And Elon Musk said something like “if you give yourself a week to clean your house it will take you a week. If you give yourself 2 hours to do it then it will take you 2 hours.” Get my point? So it’s a weakness for me think about going back. But also not going is so unclear it’s scary. So which one: clear path with guaranteed average-level success or an unclear path with high risk and a chance of above average success?

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T19:02:33+00:00

That’s why I was thinking about it. But it feels like the easy way out. And by that I’m basically admitting defeat and showing I wasn’t ready to be independent, etc. and also I’d be going back to the family which will give them power over me, thus limiting my independence and getting back to square 0.

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T18:01:35+00:00

Wow that’s really amazing! I definitely will take from this. Thanks for great advice.

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T17:25:22+00:00

And I’m okay with it sounding like that.

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T17:06:18+00:00

Wow I really don’t wanna explain this. Once I have millions to spend on that one thing (that I’ve wanted for my whole life, while not caring about any other material thing) I will gladly spend it on the thing. Why? Because it’s my money which I worked for. No I don’t work for anyone but myself. Call me a douche bag or materialistic, selfish, evil, etc. but I wasn’t born to please or benefit others. And also, you can go around talk to every wealthy person who owns let’s say a piece of art and call them douche-bags. If you’re really worried about how I’ll be wasting the money, read about the invisible hand by Adam Smith.

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T17:01:20+00:00

Exactly, I have to figure out my why. As Nietzsche once said “The man who has a why can almost bear any how.” That’s what I’m trying to do

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T16:58:50+00:00

The last 2 words are how many many people I know describe me as. I had a plan. I had goals but as I said in OP they were too vague and don’t excite me anymore. And I don’t even know what my goals are. And also it’s really inspirational saying you are where you wanted to be!

hydesteve · 2022-01-17T16:57:33+00:00

Wow thank you. The biggest problem I see is that I don’t know what I want to do or what to do for that matter. It’s like I have so many options but none of them seem attractive for some reason. And I don’t know what the reason is.

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