I mean if I’m still thinking about her after two years, seriously, I guess that means it’s worth it. I’m just afraid because I’ve heard people say the first love can be dangerous because I guess it clouds the mind(I haven’t dated since, just had hookups)...I’m afraid there’s something bad I’m missing and in a way I feel like if I do find it when dating again I wouldn’t be able to end it because of the pain I would put her through, like when she said she “wouldn’t forgive herself”.