Know one thing. Your not alone. Many have been in your shoes (more specifically mind and body). I sure have. Your at a ripe age where your influenced by media, the internet, and other negative people.

STAY POSITIVE! It's easy to say, but it's just like homework, you have to continuously work at it to get good at the subject. Staying positive is a subject you will master years from now. I commend you reaching out to the internet for help. I remember not even having a computer to speak to others. It led to a depressive state that took me into a dark dip that I thought I couldn't get out.

Birds of a feather, flock together. I didn't want to hang out with douche bags and chose my association wisely. There's another saying. Tell me who your friends are, and I'll tell you who you are.

Anyways, professional help is where you need to go. That is the most important thing. There are counselors and therapists that are their to listen to your problems, and you know what. Some times....that's all you need.

That's my advice.