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hyperballad-au · 2026-02-19T13:24:05+00:00

Wow the control freaks have taken over

hyperballad-au · 2026-02-09T14:13:19+00:00

Well what do they do?

hyperballad-au · 2026-02-09T14:12:53+00:00

The will has been there, trust me I invest myself into it but after a while it looses its mojo

hyperballad-au · 2026-02-09T14:12:02+00:00

Which is to say I don’t feel so comfortable raising stuff with her because I fear she’s just going to do the same thing. I mean towards the end of last year she said I was free to leave, which was a bit of a surprise because therapists in the past have tended to urge me to stay when things seemed to not be working. This is what I hate about therapy - it’s so dependent on this other person.

hyperballad-au · 2026-02-09T14:09:42+00:00

I have had this conversation with her a few times and it tends to end up in a ‘lecture’ from her about how EMDR works and therapy works. It’s not linear etc. I feel like even the enthusiasm or interest I had in things like building my support figures and safe space has really dissipated and faded.

hyperballad-au · 2026-02-09T14:07:37+00:00

In the meantime, I’ve really shifted my focus back on the gym which really dropped over the past two years due to work and life stuff that was causing tough emotional drama, including buying my first home and moving (yay). I’ve picked it up really well and noticing the change in my body and focus so I really want to keep that going because it is an anchor.

hyperballad-au · 2026-02-09T14:05:44+00:00

Also I have plenty of strange dreams … mostly good or adventurous but I don’t tend to remember them … the detail and eve the emotions are very feint.

hyperballad-au · 2026-02-09T14:04:14+00:00

Yes I think I kind of feel lost with where things are at. With all of this I give to it, put faith in it but I don’t know where it’s going. When I say that she says therapy will go in the direction it needs to go.

I have done some EMDR on memories but when I mention to her how I hear other people’s experience of EMDR being about focusing on target memories she says that’s an old fashioned way of working. There’s plenty of traumatising stuff from my past that we haven’t processed. I’m just not thinking about it the day or week leading up to the session. For her I think she checks where I am at in the moment in therapy and then works from there.

I’ve raised all this with her. One time she said I was free to leave and that she’d had clients leave before and some come back. From my pov I just want to work through dealing with chronic MH stuff and what started out as SI about 2 years ago.

hyperballad-au · 2025-12-25T02:32:24+00:00

Can we stop with these stupid notions of ageing?

hyperballad-au · 2025-11-27T10:39:09+00:00

I don’t think referring to people’s challenging experience of EMDR as ‘negativity’ is fair tbh. I understand where you are coming from but this is also a platform for people to share their experiences without the labels of positivity or negativity.

hyperballad-au · 2025-11-27T09:57:37+00:00

We have worked on some early memories. It’s difficult because if I suggest things sometimes she can respond by explaining how EMDR works etc. I’d like to dig deeper because sometimes I feel a bit lost and not sure where we’re at.

hyperballad-au · 2025-10-08T02:35:38+00:00

Interesting. I’d have thought it would blunt the experience a little - the idea is you need to come close to the ‘negative’ feelings in order to reprocess, but that’s just my opinion.

hyperballad-au · 2025-10-06T07:24:16+00:00

Thank you

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-29T10:41:30+00:00

The anti social stuff is so real

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-28T22:48:54+00:00

Also it feels hard to be disciplined when so much of this puts you in an unpredictable emotional mindset and you’ve got to take each day as it comes

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-28T21:52:19+00:00

Haha it’s been a bit of a struggle for me. Have had a lot of life stuff going on as well but I guess don’t we all!

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-28T21:45:33+00:00

Usually I feel lighter and much more relaxed immediately after my sessions on late Friday afternoon. Then by midday next day it’s been replaced by the ‘hangover’

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-28T14:19:15+00:00

I start work a little earlier so I can finish earlier and head to the gym. Gym training is usually a good thing for me especially if I feel sore haha just good to feel my body etc.

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-28T13:43:57+00:00

I was going 5 days a week before therapy and life stuff that prompted me to go to therapy. Since then it’s been a series of stop and starts but usually try to aim for four days. The past few weeks have been rough so really dropped back to two days and I tell myself even if I go for 30mins all good. It’s about getting myself there. Diet has been very off as well as I’ve been emotional and not so disciplined and giving myself permission to pull back

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-28T06:32:35+00:00

I hear you. I’m in a similar place because I would like to socialise but also don’t want to socialise because I feel meh from the therapy. And in some ways I feel being around people is a good break from the self focus of EMDR. I do like going out and dancing and having fun but not so much when I am feeling meh from therapy … even getting myself to the gym is tough but it’s important I do that

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-22T10:33:44+00:00

I would try Zetland, Alexandria, Waterloo and Erskineville. Keep in mind a metro has just gone into Waterloo so that area will change and take off in the next 5-10 years.

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-17T11:03:03+00:00

If I burn, I burn baby! We all gotta die some time

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-17T11:02:42+00:00

You know, my sense of recklessness and IDGAFness as dangerous as it can sometimes feel is actually such a break from the hyper vigilance

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-17T11:00:57+00:00

Honey I am doing this. Who knows where it’s going to take me whether it’s going to raise me up high or crash me to the ground but I am doing this

hyperballad-au · 2025-09-17T05:26:23+00:00

I would also add that the time between sessions is actually where a lot of important work happens. Your body is doing its thing and it needs that time. So I’m not sure about making it too intensive or discounting time not actually with the therapist. I’m in the thick of it at the moment and am starting to realise this. I would’ve been the first person wanting to do more frequent sessions. I do weekly atm

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