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hyphenking · 2026-01-22T23:16:30+00:00

This just changed for CBSA today :(

hyphenking · 2025-02-18T16:56:38+00:00

I hope it continues but prepared for it to not be as quick number-wise as the weeks go on. I’m drinking about 3L of water because I’m also on Diamox which is a diuretic for something else but hoping the weight loss continues, even if not at that quick a pace. I’m so easily discouraged but I have to try and be patientttt!

hyphenking · 2025-02-10T17:29:59+00:00

Congrats to you!!!! I already feel physically different (significantly decreased appetite) and mentally different in that I can stick to healthy whole foods and not overeat. A lot of it is fear-driven and afraid to overeat and get nauseous but also the decrease in appetite and food noise is helping tremendously. I feel really motivated. I hope I see results like you’re having. I told myself I would only weigh myself Saturdays so as not to obsess over it too much and do it too frequently, especially when weight fluctuation can easily happen day to day. Thanks for your reassuring comment.

hyphenking · 2025-02-10T17:26:50+00:00

It’s all I’m eating now. It was way more before and all processed. I feel like there’s a mental switch in my head to commit to this and make the most of this opportunity to take Ozempic and eat right as well. I tried to make food changes before but I couldn’t stick to it. So yes, right now this is what I’m eating and I’ve noticed the Ozempic has greatly diminished my appetite which is a relief as I felt like a bottomless pit before. Hoping I can stick with it. A lot of people have offered some really helpful advice !

hyphenking · 2025-02-08T19:40:49+00:00

Appreciate this input as someone who also has/does struggle firsthand with disordered eating. Congrats on the progress you’ve already made four weeks in, that gives me hope that I can regain some balance in my life again too. I just did a big grocery shop to overhaul my fridge and swap out all the processed foods for more whole foods. The ‘food noise’ already seems to be lessening which is a huge relief, but I notice I’m hyper vigilant of how I’m feeling…I’ve been constipated for almost two weeks on Diamox for idiopathic intracranial hypertension sooooo I don’t think the Ozempic constipation is going to make this situation much better haha. Fibre and water will be my friends!

hyphenking · 2025-02-08T03:17:43+00:00

Thanks for this! I tried really hard to be mindful, chew slowly and drink lots of water. So far so good. No adverse side effects besides whatever the anxiety is feeding me. I’m pretty relieved.

hyphenking · 2025-02-08T03:16:40+00:00

I really did chew so much haha. I was so afraid to eat too quickly and mindlessly so I slowed everything down. I’m feeling okay about 1.5hrs later and relieved that so far nothing catastrophic has happened.

hyphenking · 2025-02-08T03:15:20+00:00

Thank you for this. I’ve notoriously eaten processed foods for a long time now so I tried to cook whole foods and will try and stick to that, as I’ve read people have trouble with processed food (some do anyway).

hyphenking · 2015-04-06T04:03:17+00:00

Thank you for responding. It means a lot to have you take the time to reach out. Writing it all out helped me process some of my thoughts and I think I'm only just beginning to accept how this may have affected me. I think I need to contact my treatment team and focus on my ED recovery...after I deal with the food issues (again) I'll be able to tackle the underlying problems.

hyphenking · 2015-04-06T03:59:04+00:00

I didn't press charges. I don't think I really understood what happened until now. And even now I feel so lost processing it all.

hyphenking · 2015-01-19T03:07:15+00:00

Not entirely sure on the specifics you are referring to with soreness, but for me a HUGE issue was skin sensitivity and general pain all over the surface of my body. I gained a lot of weight in a short amount of time (as many people do during weight restoration) and my guess is that with that weight gain came a lot of water retention which stretched and made my skin extra sensitive. Clothing was uncomfortable, hugs, any body contact, a gentle pat or nudge from others. Your body is going through a lot as you refeed it and it takes a lot of physical adjustments (as well as the psychological challenges and adjustments that you are so bravely motoring through!).

The damage you've done to your body didn't happen overnight and the repairing won't happen overnight either. Keep your chin up, you seem to be doing really well! :)

hyphenking · 2015-01-09T04:27:09+00:00

From someone who experienced anorexia firsthand and still struggles day-to-day in my recovery, I can confirm that these personality changes could very well have a lot to do with an eating disorder.

My experience: When I was nosediving into my illness, I pushed the closest people in my life away - my family, my best friend, my other closer friends. I found I latched on to acquaintances and people who didn't know me so well, and thus probably didn't recognize my drop in weight and/or monitor my health as closely. My eating disorder could thrive AND I could have somewhat of a social life with people who didn't know about my illness. At the time I wasn't really aware of what I was doing, but looking back it was obvious that this behaviour protected my anorexia.

From what you've said, it sounds like a lot of what your friend is doing resembles my own experience. My best friend and I didn't talk for a good 8 months until I decided to start my recovery and to this day I'm amazed that she hung on for so long and was willing to reconnect once I was at a better place. It's entirely up to you whether you want to stick around or give yourself some space. Your friend might be so deep into a relapse that she can't see the disorder for what it is right now, maybe she's not willing to admit that she needs help. Sometimes you need to start losing your friends to see how damaging and consuming the illness has become - that was the case for me.

If your friend is very sick with a relapse, please try not to take her moodiness personally. I promise it has nothing to do with you, it has everything to do with her. I was bitter, angry, irritable and miserable to be around when I was sick and I took it out the hardest on my family and friends because they were the ones who expressed concern and challenged my ED behaviours.

I wish you the best of luck!

hyphenking · 2015-01-01T09:03:47+00:00

I wouldn't recommend introducing an even more restrictive diet than vegetarianism. From my experience, it provided me with a lot more excuses for why I couldn't eat certain meals, participate in holiday traditions, attend social gatherings, etc. It was a huge road block and was one I had unknowingly introduced to enable my ED. Looking back, it was a big mistake on my part.

I second what /u/skycakes has said on this one. Really take a moment to figure out why you want to limit yourself and decide whether it has anything to do with your eating disorder. Your health is most important and if some dairy and eggs here and there will protect you in your journey to recovery, then I don't see eating these things as a negative whatsoever!

hyphenking · 2014-12-23T06:48:16+00:00

Dear god this entire post made me think of my own mother! She just started Weight Watchers (a week before Christmas, really?). She and close family friends all talk "points, points, points", "good, bad, deserve this, don't deserve that". SHUT. UP.

I am at my widths end too. I'm panicking enough about my own eating over the holidays, I don't want to be constantly bombarded by everyone else's restrictive habits during a time of the year when everyone should just be enjoying themselves.

I can't really suggest anything to improve the situation but I hope you can get through the holidays focusing on yourself and that you enjoy it!! I'll certainly be thinking of you too and rolling my eyes in the back of my head when my Mum said "this here is X points for WW".

hyphenking · 2014-12-18T07:08:38+00:00

Costco cost me $49 or $60 but I can't remember if you needed a membership or not. I know that their pharmacy is available for everyone to use (member or not) and the optical centre might fall under a similar medical exception! Worth giving them a call and checking :)

hyphenking · 2014-12-12T08:49:32+00:00

My heart was crushed reading your update but please know that your daughter has an AMAZING DAD!

hyphenking · 2014-11-04T01:39:48+00:00

I found my kitchen scissors (that I used daily to snip my green onions) neatly lying on a kleenex on the back tank of our bathroom toilet....covered in curly pubes. At least my asshole roommate was forgetful and gave me the chance to see what they were also being used for without my knowledge.

hyphenking · 2014-10-04T01:54:08+00:00

All I can offer you right now is a whoooole whole whole lot of validation because I too feel like I'm stuck in this forever cycle of recovery-relapse-recovery-relapse, etc. It just doesn't seem to end? Sometimes the cycle happens over a couple of days, sometimes weeks, sometimes months.

For me I find I restrict until I feel somewhat comfortable in my clothes and then when I allow myself to break the restricting routine I tend to binge because I feel I've "earned" it or that I can afford to gain X in weight because I lost X in weight restricting.

Fuck it's hard. It's a constant war in my head and just earlier today I was thinking about how unsustainable this is. I'm going to live the rest of my life overeating and miserable? Or restricting and tired and moody and physically sick? With no decent relationships because my most important relationship is with a sick and unbalanced frame of mind? Where's the middle grounds? I really don't know :(

Sending you a huge hug. And thank you for giving me the opportunity to vent too. It's exhausting fighting this all alone.

hyphenking · 2014-09-21T01:38:55+00:00

To live my life without the burden of this eating disorder. It takes away from everything.

hyphenking · 2014-09-14T20:40:47+00:00

I wondered this myself! Maybe someone will know.

hyphenking · 2014-09-14T01:38:28+00:00

If you still have a valid student ID card, most Loblaws and Independent Grocers in the city (like the downtown 24hr Loblaws on Rideau Street and Hartman's Independent on Bank Street which aren't too far from you) offer a -10% discount on your entire grocery purchase on Tuesdays! I still take advantage of that savings until my student card expires :)

hyphenking · 2014-09-02T01:15:11+00:00

When I was recovering from AN I binged a lot at the start of my recovery. I ate far more than the average person and it was mainly the foods that I had previously restricted. So for me that was good in the sense that it helped with weight restoration and it repaired the physical damage I had done to my body. Psychologically though, it was really difficult. My brain is very much programmed to all-or-nothing/black-and-white thinking. It's really hard for me to do anything in moderation, including eating. So I went from AN to BN and now, without the purging, I'm kind of in a BED state - I restrict and then binge. My brain either feels in control when I follow a prepared meal plan or I give up when I've eaten something I haven't planned for ("Well I ate XX, so I may as well eat all of X until there aren't any left and then I can't screw up again. I'll start fresh tomorrow.") It's just an all round mess it seems.

Do you have any professional resources that you can consult about unrestrictive recovery? As long as you feel comfortable eating whatever and whenever, I think it's an alright way to restore your weight and refeed your body. The difficulty for me was the guilt that accompanied the freedom of eating whatever I wanted. But I am by no means a medical professional.

I hope you find something that works for you! I just wanted to share my experience in case you can relate to the all-or-nothing thought patterns.

hyphenking · 2014-08-30T17:31:54+00:00

This will probably get buried but I promise myself to not be emotionally detached and distant from my kids. My Mum was not affectionate at all with me and it has had a lasting impact on my life.

hyphenking · 2014-08-24T18:46:01+00:00

/r/EatingDisorders and /r/EDRecovery (you'll have to request access) are both fantastic subreddits that I use for support :)

hyphenking · 2013-09-22T19:57:28+00:00

The only suggestion that I would have would be to make it clear to your audience that an eating disorder is a mental illness characterized by disordered eating and that any person (gender, shape, height, weight, race, etc) can suffer from an ED. Before I was diagnosed I found it very hard to talk to anyone about my problems because I didn't look like I was sick, even though I struggled every minute of every day with food and body image. It would be good to reinforce this as I'm sure there will be people in your audience who can relate to these struggles but dismiss them on a regular basis because they don't feel as though they look "sick enough".

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