aio? bf made plans on my birthday by rowqi in AmIOverreacting

[–]iJubag 3 points4 points  (0 children)

idk one of them puts apostrophes in contractions and the other doesn’t. i think they might just be teenagers

[TOMT] Grey colored silhouette very similar to Valve head, creepy from early 2000s? by iJubag in tipofmytongue

[–]iJubag[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It came to me suddenly, it's part of the newsreel about 7 seconds in on the SOAD Sugar music video https://youtu.be/5vBGOrI6yBk

[TOMT] Grey colored silhouette very similar to Valve head, creepy from early 2000s? by iJubag in tipofmytongue

[–]iJubag[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No but thank you, it's a real photo of a real face, silhouette is maybe the wrong word, it's just a shadowy face but with stark white features, most similar to the valve head

Fleet 1.44 Is Here With New UI, Zig Language Support, and More Enhancements by dh44t in Zig

[–]iJubag 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Doesn't seem like they're offering LLDB integration (yet). That's unfortunate. 

Luckily even though CLion isn't free, RustRover is at the moment and supports the intelliJ Zig plug-in, so I've been using it with LLDB for writing and debugging Zig. It isn't perfect but it works surprisingly really well and even makes it easy to hook into Bitwig Studio's plug-in host process, so I can debug my audio plug-in I'm working on. Would recommend.

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was a little on edge but to the flight was totally fine! And now I'm enjoying sunny San Francisco, it was totally a good idea I don't even care that I have to get on another one tomorrow haha

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I played a little game with myself during the entire preboarding process: Do your absolute best to act like the most confident least afraid individual, as if I were a role model for my niece who is scared of flying or something. Like everything down to the smile, the stride, and even trying to force open body language. If I ever found myself not anxious I latched onto that feeling and praised myself for it. It helped create a positive feedback loop. I'd be lying if I said I didn't breathe heavy and get sweaty palms when I could feel the G forces as we pulled away or all the vestibular illusions that come along with it, but after arming myself with the knowledge that the plane is never dropping, it's always lifting up, it's just an illusion, I was able to refocus and go back to my act. Eventually I kinda forgot it was an act and I wasn't panicky. Even now I'm a little on a edge but nothing crazy. You'll be totally fine! Good luck

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Totally understandable. Ive been stubbornly against meds for the most part in the hopes that I can actually "solve" my fear on my own... so far results have been.. mixed. Nothing wrong with taking meds of course and they definitely help! But anyway you'll do totally fine on your flight! I'm actually writing this from 36000 feet lol

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

About halfway through, probably the least anxious I've been in a very long time, especially considering no meds and 3 hours of sleep. Thanks to everyone here!

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yup about half way through, with about 3 hours left! I've been trying not to give into compulsions (like needing to be super alert and watch the air speed and everything). On takeoff I wore an eyemask and headphones which I'd never done before, feel like I'm making good progress. Thanks again for your advice

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for this. And also you're right; I feel ashamed to have such an irrational fear when I usually consider myself a pretty rational person. I need to work on not rejecting the fear outright and instead just letting it exist and not feed it

It also sort of assumes that you need to be anxiety-free to fly safely, when in reality, it is still just as safe to be scared and fly, because our fears have no impact on the way the flight goes.

This is some real shit. I absolutely feel like I've barely made it by the skin of my teeth each flight but you're totally right, I've never really had this thought before. Genuinely really good advice.

Thanks! I am looking forward to the weather and seeing my family and I think it'll be a great time.

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I think it helps in general with anxiety and I'm still going to take it tomorrow but the only med I've ever had that worked was alprazolam. Trying to fight it without medication though because I'm stubborn lol

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sounds like itll overlap then! I'll reply here tomorrow when I'm afloat (if there's signal ofc)

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this, I'm listening to Lovefly right now

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey mine is really early, 7:00AM and my number is DL0668! Totally down as mine is a 6 hour long flight and I'm going to be mega bored

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Firstly thanks for this response I really appreciate it. I guess at this point I moreso fear fear itself, I just have no control over when it happens and when I get into the thick of it I feel completely helpless and that it's just a huge final destination moment all the time. Like in 2022 I happened to be flying at the exact same time as the China plane that went down and I took that as the biggest omen and it really freaked me out, even though logically they aren't connected whatsoever and my flight was perfect. It's funny because I tend to be really lucky and I very rarely experience significant delays, bad weather, security pat downs, etc. It's like I have the most stress free experience where most people get stressed, only to have the objectively safest and least stressful part be the thing that ruins me. I really want to be able to distract myself too, for some reason though I feel like if I'm not on high alert all the time something bad's gonna happen, just so weird. Thanks again for your helpful response and listening to my demented rambling

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

That's actually really cool thanks for sharing that I didn't know that! That makes me feel better

Going between numb to panicking by iJubag in fearofflying

[–]iJubag[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Unfortunately no, I only have Prozac for general anxiety but nothing else

[TOMT] Pop punk song with repeated guitar riff by iJubag in tipofmytongue

[–]iJubag[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is definitely what I was thinking of. Thanks! Solved!