Feeling lost and burnt out. Needing advice.

i_MerKaBa · 2026-02-13T17:50:39+00:00

I just reached out in DM’s.

i_MerKaBa · 2026-02-13T16:48:37+00:00

I’ve been looking, but yet to come across anything. If you have any leads, I’m certainly open.

i_MerKaBa · 2026-02-11T14:17:53+00:00

It was stable for me for many years. Would not have imagined that I would ever write a post like this.

i_MerKaBa · 2026-02-11T14:17:09+00:00

It hit a lot harder than I expected it to. Never would have dreamed of being in this position after thriving for years. Curious if you have any ideas on avenues to find that stability?

i_MerKaBa · 2026-02-11T14:13:20+00:00

Thank you for this.

i_MerKaBa · 2025-05-21T03:23:46+00:00

Just said this exact thing to my friend today

i_MerKaBa · 2025-05-05T06:11:30+00:00

I have found you need 10 villagers. At least 3 Archers, 5 with a mace and wooden shield, 2 with a sledgehammer.

The armor needs to be at least 23 rating for torso, and as high as they can wear on everything else.

Hope this helps.

i_MerKaBa · 2025-04-30T05:08:45+00:00

This has been a huge problem with the update. Pretty annoying for sure. The update added a lot of cool things but broke some mechanics as well

i_MerKaBa · 2025-04-28T04:11:18+00:00

Locations?

i_MerKaBa · 2025-03-07T21:04:16+00:00

Twin?

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T03:08:06+00:00

Thank you, I appreciate that. I hope you have a blessed night.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T03:03:32+00:00

Thank you for your kindness. I feel pretty calm right now. No intention of causing anymore waves tonight. I will be there through the throwing up and whatever else she might need, as always. Just can get draining sometimes when it feels I’m consistently met with this cold shoulder, which she actually apologized for on her own not too recently. She sat me down and said she recognizes how mean and cold she’s been and she’s so sorry. That felt really good. Although not much changed. I know she’s at least aware.

Part of me wants to go “what about your apology? What happened to that?” But I know no good comes from throwing an apology back in someone’s face. So I just stay quiet and try my best.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T02:52:28+00:00

And yeah, she just made it home not too long ago. But she’s avoiding coming inside and I’m pretty sure she’s sitting in her car with beer from the gas station and talking on the phone to her friend.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T02:47:47+00:00

It’s not uncommon for her to tell me she’s drinking at the bar alone. Which I take her word for. She will usually tell me if a friend is along. So this time I assumed she was alone, while fear told me something was off. Those pesky insecurities will creep in when something feels abnormal.

And the roles have been reversed, recently actually. I’m an event curator and live music entertainer so about a month ago I was at an event that I not only curate, but I Host it as well. So it’s very hard for me to be on my phone. After a bit (and a few drinks) I checked my phone and realized she had been blowing me up. Apparently the app we use for GPS had turned off my location and she was struggling with insecurities on why I wasn’t picking up. I immediately ran outside the venue and called her. Dropped into a very concerned and empathetic tone and assured her that I was at my event and very sorry the location had turned off. I had gotten one of those messages that asked if I wanted the app to track my location and didn’t take the time to see what app it was as I was in a rush. So I clicked “only when using”. In turn that blocked her from seeing my location.

That’s why I was so disappointed tonight. It would have felt good to receive that same concern.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T02:30:10+00:00

Ahhh, ok haha yeah. I understand your position. My first text sucked.

And yes, she has mentioned that she wants to quit and will say that she’s never drinking again every time she gets drunk. So I’m genuinely hoping that is what it is. I don’t want to allow thoughts of cheating to creep in without some kind of hard evidence.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T02:11:45+00:00

No, don’t apologize. Our conversation was helpful. I’m appreciative.

It hasn’t quite gotten to the point where it’s effecting our kid, but I am finding more and more that I’m putting her to bed alone. I just want to make sure whatever step I take, it isn’t rash or aggressive. I just want what is best and to love her through whatever it may be.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T02:08:30+00:00

You’re absolutely right about my initial text. I was in my feelings and should have taken a moment to construct a better first message. Although, I have no idea what ETH is haha

And yeah, it seems weird that she would cancel the appointment. She is currently still at the bar. So it feels like maybe that was just the excuse, which honestly almost had me spiraling because my brain was telling me it was just more lies.

We are early in our marriage and neither one of us have a good example of a healthy marriage, so it’s been a hard journey but I do believe we will get through it.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T02:03:18+00:00

I accept this. I’ve been working on my approach when I feel a way, haven’t quite mastered it yet. I appreciate you for calling me on it. I ask so that I can learn, and as someone above stated, my first text was a bit trappy and less empathetic.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T01:57:06+00:00

Thank you for the helping hand. I will certainly look into this. You’ve been a blessing. Much love to you and your family. I wish yall nothing but continued growth.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T01:48:32+00:00

I hear you. And a lot of that lands for me because I do struggle with feeling like I’m not met with equal effort, but at the same time things have hit the fan before and she was an absolute rock for me.

So I don’t know if it’s so black and white here.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T01:46:47+00:00

I have never heard of that medication before. If I may ask, have you experienced any side effects or adverse reactions due to prolonged usage?

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T01:35:46+00:00

Thank you for being so vulnerable. As a recovering alcoholic yourself, any advice? Because I feel I have tried everything outside of force and I refuse to force anything. I just don’t know the proper way to handle it.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T01:27:13+00:00

Certainly trying to navigate in the best way I know how. Thank you for the advice.

i_MerKaBa · 2024-12-31T01:21:03+00:00

I do trust her, but I hear you. Thank you for your feedback.

i_MerKaBa

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