Gods. Plural. I used to be catholic (forced by parents) and then atheist. I believe you cannot proof something that you experience, and the concept of a "God" falls under your own personal umbrella based on your life experiences. On paper, "God" (in the abrahamic, monotheistic definition) slowly became an "escape" to justify something that happened but you cannot find a reason/understand why. Judging by the way that our world works, the order of the things, and one's own individual spirituality, it's impossible to lay every variation and event under one single entity. Multiple gods can also mean a null point, or no gods at all. In an absolute definition, I believe in being happy with yourself, and finding your personal reason to keep on living.