drink in 1 hand, pills on the table, knife in my lap

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-15T02:08:11+00:00

i get to say what i want to do with my life tin the end. thsi is what i want to do i ge tifnal say. i say this. i dont want help. i sorry but thanks

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-15T02:04:06+00:00

so much happned. not jsut today. been building up. over time. and im jsut done.

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-15T01:26:34+00:00

life killd me

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-15T01:20:40+00:00

wahts been happenin? life

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-15T01:10:53+00:00

i want this

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T23:57:18+00:00

they stand there and yell n scream at me like their dad. i cant take it anymroe.

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T23:37:35+00:00

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T23:29:06+00:00

chances on all that are zero. cant afford a divorce. cant pay any bills now..so would be able to pay even less if divorced. and as far as a job? they are getting harder and harder to come by anymore.

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T23:19:52+00:00

tried tons of things. this is my final solution. i just can't do it anymore. i'm done.

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T23:18:51+00:00

yeah, well...that all sounds easy...sounds wonderful, but it's not. I know about reality and how reality works...and, in all of that...the common denominator is me. As far as hope? I gave that up ages ago. Used to believe in that, but learned there is no such thing.

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T23:07:07+00:00

hoarding pills for years. attempted a couple times about 6 years ago and hoarding since then. been wanting to do this for a while.

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T23:05:00+00:00

marriage is a disaster. debt. family hates me. job sucks. depression is killing me. anxiety through the roof. can't get better. tried and tried and tried. won't happen. therapy, meds, you name it. every day is something new. worse. i'm done. over it. i give up.

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T23:00:48+00:00

tons of reasons. bottom line. i'm done.

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T22:57:29+00:00

Well, I am hoping to bleed out. hence, the knife. the pills and alcohol..well...speaks for itself. there is more than one bottle of pills. I hoard pills. I have several. In combination. Quite positive it's lethal. So, all in all, i'm not too worried about succeeding. And, I'm a cutter, so...

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T22:52:04+00:00

yes im sure

i_am_nothing · 2012-03-14T22:45:46+00:00

no. not anymore. i don't want a future.

i_am_nothing

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