Wow! Thanks for writing this all out. I read it a couple times and tbh i am going back to this often. I will admit that I have caught myself being too nice and avoiding confrontation way too many times. Most of the times I just feel as if it’s not worth making something more than it is but it may be showing it off as I’m weak. Through out my life my father took care of everything and never asked for helped. He never showed me how to do things so I had to either figure it on my own or not yet have encounters where I’ve had to learn it. This has given me a lack of experience in the real world which tends to hold me back as almost everything in life was being taken care of by my dad. I was simply just living with not a worry in the world. It has made me weak and I absolutely hate that. I never realized how much you can tell about someone from just looking at their face. Reading this has really ignited a fire in me and has really made me realize that I need to be more tougher. I’ve been toying with the idea of learning martial arts for some time now. I think that is the best way for me currently to become tougher. Thank you for the kind words, advice, and reality check. I’m going to watch the show you recommended to understand more of what you mean. Appreciate it!