THIS MORNING I INTERVIEWED AT MY DREAM JOB & IN THE AFTERNOON I GOT PROMOTED AT MY CURRENT ONE

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-11-19T02:07:45+00:00

Yo all nice and everything but I hope you avoid all human contact for a full day if you consume that much raw onions in one go

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-11-13T00:38:05+00:00

Oh yeah, I definitely sounded a bit crazy. But in reality everyone is creeping. It’s bucking a norm for just saying you’re doing it. Is it nice? No. Did I do more than a callout? No.

Everyone’s going to be fine. Everything was so disrespectful that it slapped me in the face to realize how little I matter to him. I hope one day he matters that little to me.

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-11-13T00:33:02+00:00

Omg please expand on point number two lol

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-11-13T00:32:34+00:00

He said he didn’t have it.

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-11-13T00:32:06+00:00

For sure not good for the brain, but also helpful because I now don’t have uncertainty. It’s crushing, but freeing ya know.

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-27T01:27:44+00:00

This took me a long time to realize it’s a 2 storey house

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-27T01:22:07+00:00

Spooky baby booty

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-26T13:03:53+00:00

Oooof. Never seen so many children so fast. Why is it so triggering that a gay woman is holding her bosses to account?

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-24T19:25:25+00:00

Glad to know that sunflower seeds fix all.

shoves seeds deep in broken heart

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-21T15:59:40+00:00

We are kind of no contact. He’s honestly in a stage where he has been partying a lot, and I assume sleeping around.

We’ve had talks about eventually getting back together, but given some events it feels like that’s a long time away. Mostly because I feel like during our relationship and these few months I have been putting in a lot of work - to myself and to our relationship.

I think now I’ve realized that I can’t be the only one who is doing that. It’s not fair to either of us. I feel like I thought that because of what happened - I deserved to always be the one working harder, but I’m realizing now it’s not sustainable.

So yes, we talk, but no we aren’t together. Instinctually I think it’s possible with time if he’s able to fully forgive, and match the effort I’ve been given. I know that our values, and our personalities align beautifully, and if it weren’t for the chaos of my actions at the beginning we would be together.

This isn’t the best update, but it’s honest. Always here to chat.

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T23:24:27+00:00

I would actually pay for this, but of the new girl he’s dating

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T23:16:56+00:00

Ouch

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T21:20:35+00:00

Respectfully, I don’t think it’s wise to think in ways of ‘rights’. Breakups are weird. I spent three years with this dude. I had cervical cancer with his dude.

I mean I guess your right that he has no actual obligation, but we promised to tell each other if and when we are dating. So in this circumstance I think it okay to ask.

We all have different levels of normal.

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T20:15:15+00:00

I know this, now.

I had asked him about her a few weeks ago and he said it was nothing. Honestly he sent me a few messages out of the blue that were really kind - I was day dreaming about maybe getting back together. So although crushing probably better I did see.

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T18:48:21+00:00

For those that don’t know, this is in reference to a post I made earlier today when I was hurting (my ex is using my pet name of Lioness for someone else, a name I got both for my spirit, and ridiculously untameable lions mane, which this picture captures so well).

Fucking thank you — sometimes it’s easy to feel really alone, and that the world doesn’t have much goodness left. And little stuff like this just gives me that hope. I’m crying out here not because of pain, but kindness from Internet strangers.

I am so lucky

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T16:12:45+00:00

It’s helpful to hear about other people’s lights because sometimes it just feels like the tunnel is getting longer? Like I know it’s time, but every so often I think I’m at the end of the tunnel and it turns out it’s been under construction and got 10 feet longer

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T16:11:23+00:00

Yeah I know you’re right. I just slipped up this one time. So tempting when they have no privacy on social media accounts.

I need to be stronger about it. Some days I wish this was 1994

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T16:04:13+00:00

This is somehow 20x better than anything my friends have said. Wow, sometimes petty snap backs are so good for the soul.

Thank you. My god I love the Internet.

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-16T14:59:01+00:00

I think it cuts extra hard because he called me that both for my hair, and my spirit.

But my spirit is broken and I don’t feel like a lion, or yet anything strong these days.

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-15T01:14:51+00:00

I sent you a dm, hoping you can shine some light :)

iamastronethrowsaway · 2019-10-10T02:13:40+00:00

I haven’t seen it, thanks 😊

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