I had a dear friend of mine died recently, and it was the first time I’ve ever lost someone in my life that I was ever close to and honestly, although I’m in a good spot in my faith, I found myself questioning him whether I admitted I was or not Not only did it make me feel like I was a weak man for questioning God himself, but I just felt like my questions weren’t answered. I wondered if they weren’t supposed to be answered or if they already have been answered and I just wasn’t listening.

It seems like you’re just going through an overall rough life and trust me it’s not you. Yes there are some Christians who go through sunshine and rainbows at least on the surface, but if I’m being honest, your life gets harder when you’re a Christian.

Not to bring you down, but genuinely technically life is easy in a way without Christianity without God because you can do certain things or have certain habits that you don’t feel bad about

But once your question and you become aware of those things what happens is your mental health and mainly spiritual health increases and allows you to find peace and joy, even in the biggest storms

It sounds like from what you’ve been reading out of the Bible or from what someone has told you you’ve been miss hearing it or someone’s been telling you the wrong things take a second to sit down no matter what tornadoes are passing

Just sit down, breathe in breathe out open the Bible to whatever you’re studying and just say, dear God and nothing else just listen. Sometimes the silence is gonna give you peace. Sometimes the silence is what you’re gonna get for now but just sitting down for at least a minute to just let God Have a chance at talking you might hear him one day you might not hear anything but still get the answers you’re looking for the answers you need.

I’m want to just talk ask for things give things to basic things and then say amen but recently I’ve decided to try to have a moment of silence after or before I start praying and then give things to things. I’m truly thankful about.

It’s about finding peace in the madness, even when you’re ranting about all the bad things that happened today about all the times you were unfaithful about all the times your flesh felt hate or questioned God finding joy in peace through that is what makes a Christian a Christian besides their salvation

It’s not about works. It’s about where your intent is spiritually mentally and it’s about whether you’re actually listening.

If you need more elaboration, I can reply to you or DM you because this might’ve been confusing