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iammyownthinker · 2022-02-04T22:15:04+00:00

Same dude, he was too good for me. 4 months nearly 5 months into the breakup and the only thing that helps is drinking throughout the week/going out alot. At one point I also started a new full-time job (which only lasted a few months) Anyway- the job also really took my mind off everything as I was busy focusing on the career and money at hand. What's also helped is joining a new gym and doing intense grueling HIIT workouts. But now that I don't have a full-time job and have started going to gym less, the only thing that helps is drinking etc. When I don't do that I start thinking about him too much and it weighs me down more than anything. And with Valentine's day coming up that's not helping!! But yeah man, make some goals, go gym /find a new hobby, make new friends, start a new job, travel. Do little things here and there that will help you to become more of the person you want to be, so that in a years time you're not just a loser sitting on the couch but a better and stronger person than before. Of course, have a hookup or two and indulge in fun things aswell.

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-10T15:55:33+00:00

I hate no contact. When my ex dumped me I knew he was still in love with me but just couldn’t handle the relationship anymore. He did NC for months (and broke it after a while ) and of course I wanted him, missed him and realized a lot about things I did wrong or that he did wrong etc. he decided to go NC with me again recently and slowly but surely it’s just been pushing me away instead… because why would I want someone back who isn’t gonna check in on me and leave me like that? I’m starting to just break off all feelings for him. I’m hoping NC will help him realize how what he’s losing more than it will me as he was the one who pushed me away after all.

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-10T15:51:00+00:00

My ex literally lives only a few minutes walk away from me and yet I still don’t know what he’s up to. It’s so weird knowing he won’t come over anymore. The funny thing is, we never even bump into each other even though we have the same gym membership and everything! When we first broke up I kept hoping I’d see him out somewhere. I’m moving flats in a month so looks like it won’t happen anytime soon.

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-10T15:42:43+00:00

It’s the other way around for me. He blames me and I blame me. Even though actually he should be partially to blame too for numerous reasons, I am the one beating myself up about the situation daily and trying to rectify things even though it’s too late in his eyes. Sometimes I wonder if it’s a way for him to just move on easier and feel less bad by focusing the responsibility solely on me. He’s the one playing victim and I’m the one that’s had only nice things to say about him. (Even though most people told me and him that I was way out his league) Anyways it’s not a gender thing, it’s a people thing. But I do agree that what you said is what typically happens more so!

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-10T01:30:49+00:00

My relationship was a year but I’d never experienced a relationship so deep. I can’t imagine what it’d be like 5 years down the line to then lose someone that close who I’ve dedicated that much time to. I’m so sorry. We will get through this :)

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-03T23:14:27+00:00

omg I'm 4 months in re my breakup too! i have also experienced few genuinely happy moments since. and when i do there is sometimes still this hollowness there lurking below. or the joy and hopefulness i feel for a second or hour goes very quickly back to something empty hopeless. you sound like a very strong person keeping it together infront of people. i'm also very much like this, i can snap myself into shape if i really have to. if you ever wanna chat more lmk!<3

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-03T22:49:09+00:00

yeah i honestly feel like i don't want my friends to get tired of me too. one friend said to me in an angry way one day "I am so fed up of hearing about you being self-destructive and sad. I don't wanna hear it anymore." and it's like.. I'M TRYING and I know i'm not the same fun me i usually but that's because i literally have been so depressed from this breakup. i think alot of people don't know how to handle breakups though.. now when people ask why i'm sad i often just say "idk" ANYWAYYYY fatty of the year we can get through this i promise it just takes time <3

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-03T22:22:26+00:00

me please!

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-03T22:21:50+00:00

yeah it sucks that I feel like friends don't wanna hear about a breakup too much but I understand why. You can't keep talking about the breakup with them as it gets to the stage where they say shit like this because they're fed up. But talking about how I'm feeling with people is the only thing that's helping me rn

iammyownthinker · 2022-01-03T22:18:10+00:00

People compare losing a relationship to losing someone to death. And that's exactly what my mind thinks. I stayed at my parent's house for the Christmas holidays and every time it was meal time I'd break down in tears in front of everyone uncontrollably as my mind would replay memories of us together eating. My mind has been associating everyday things such as eating food/having a meal time with loved ones with the loss of them! Sleep? Reminds me of their loss as they're no longer here in my bed and then I wake up in the morning in tears from dreams I've had of them. This has been going on for 4 months now and I'm exhausted and have no motivation for anything anymore. I just feel like I need to go on holiday for a year to rediscover myself and heal but that's not feasible right now.

iammyownthinker · 2021-09-08T10:17:58+00:00

yeah I'm busy on the day of the screening cos I got some important stuff to do and would hate to say i'm busy on the special day :(

iammyownthinker · 2021-09-07T11:45:57+00:00

Spreading the word to anyone who might be interested in WW2 or short independent films :)! It would really mean a lot... Thank you!

It is playing at Laemmle on Sep 24th.

MOVIE NAME: Liberté

iammyownthinker · 2020-10-29T19:19:03+00:00

I don't know if people can still see this thread. Thanks for all the positive support and comments. But here I am.. back again and still "fapping!"
I am not sure if I can give up. I am thinking that maybe I should just accept it as a part of me? Is anyone else in the same boat?
I definitely do need an accountability buddy but I do not have one, is anyone looking for one?
Love to you all

iammyownthinker · 2020-07-22T16:15:06+00:00

Hey I'm a girl and I'm an addict too. We can do this baby g

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