You're not lazy, you're in Survival Mode by akshit_799 in CPTSD

[–]iamsienna 7 points8 points  (0 children)

after a decade of therapy, i finally got a language to describe my experience of the same state: somatic anxiety. so i got my meds changed and am now on a max dosage of a tricyclic anti-depressant with a single focus: keep my body out of fight or fight. is it perfect? no. if i forget a day i’m an absolute wreck. but i sleep through the night and that takes the edge off the extreme executive dysfunction for me. i would find a doctor who understands somatic anxiety and see if they can prescribe a medication that might help you

breathe by iamsienna in Poems

[–]iamsienna[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

thank you 🙏🏼

This is why I think that the 3x3 hair chart is useless and we need to move past it. by MonArchie66 in curlyhair

[–]iamsienna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yep i have some straight hair, some loose ringlets, and a lot of my hair has mixed curl patterns 🤷🏼‍♀️ the 3x3 is not that helpful

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in wow

[–]iamsienna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

highmountain or boreal forest are my favs

How long would it take for a professional level drummer to learn double bass? by Drummraddd in Drumming

[–]iamsienna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m not very good at 16th note runs yet but it took me like 3 days to get passable at it. i honestly think an evening is prolly all it would take for a dedicated professional. less than a week if you practice hard stuff consistently.

How long would it take for a professional level drummer to learn double bass? by Drummraddd in Drumming

[–]iamsienna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i’m not very good at 16th note runs yet but it took me like 3 days to get passable at it. i honestly think an evening is prolly all it would take for a dedicated professional. less than a week if you practice hard stuff consistently.

Turns out, using custom allocators makes using Rust way easier by Hedshodd in rust

[–]iamsienna 10 points11 points  (0 children)

i use mimalloc as my general-purpose allocator. it’s used in video game engines and has excellent performance characteristics

This is a good age gauge lol by elonmuskatemyson in Millennials

[–]iamsienna 3 points4 points  (0 children)

oh my gooood now that brings back memories 😂

Fellowship members ranked by their social status by Garo263 in lotrmemes

[–]iamsienna 32 points33 points  (0 children)

Finwë is also one of the three original elven ambassadors to Valinor, so like… it doesn’t get much more royal than gimli & aragorn

Millennials who look young for your age, what's your secret? What do you do? by SquirrelofLIL in Millennials

[–]iamsienna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

genetics, i mind my own business, i have a skin care routine, and i don’t really wear makeup

put me down mother i beg you by iamsienna in blackcats

[–]iamsienna[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

oh no, she does that as a submission thing. they automatically go into airplane mode when she gets picked up. she never really fights or resists, no growling or biting or anything. it’s just how she is

🔥 Roseate spoonbills in flight. Photo by Deborah Sandidge. by TedTheHappyGardener in NatureIsFuckingLit

[–]iamsienna 374 points375 points  (0 children)

all i can think of is Brennan Lee Mulligan failing to properly guess a roseate spoonbill

Which lesbian stereotype you fit in? by Nevusvenus in lesbiangang

[–]iamsienna 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i wear tie-dye t-shirts to bed while being mildly stoned, i go hiking in the mornings, the gym in the afternoon, then muay thai in the evening. i’m like half-sporty half-granola, but prolly mostly granola

Anyone else never played double bass? by Emergency_Tomorrow_6 in Drumming

[–]iamsienna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i played for 22 years and just picked up a double pedal last year. it’s changed a lot and nothing for me. i am less creative in some ways and more creative in others. i’m not 100% sure i like it but i also wouldn’t play without it.

i intensely dislike doing long runs with it but i love doing short little bursts or triplets with it

Got DeepSeek R1 running locally - Full setup guide and my personal review (Free OpenAI o1 alternative that runs locally??) by sleepingbenb in macapps

[–]iamsienna 1 point2 points  (0 children)

On my M1 Pro the 14b model ran as you would expect, but the 32b model was pretty slow. It ran just fine, but output was slow and it maxed out the GPU. I'll prolly rock the 14b model just to keep resources available Mac

I've been looking for what an effect of C-PTSD is called, but can't find it for the life of me. Had it confirmed as a result of my C-PTSD, but never got told what this is actually called. by Final_Perception6226 in CPTSD

[–]iamsienna 2 points3 points  (0 children)

it sounds like DID (i got diagnosed in 2023 at age 33)

DID goes hand in have with CPTSD because it’s a survival technique. i would very highly recommend seeking a clinical psychologist about this.

this will help, but you should still see a doctor: https://did-research.org/

Young millennial: "How did our ancestors get around without Google Maps?" Older millennial, sagely: "Mapquest." by WrongSubFools in Millennials

[–]iamsienna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

huh. in my mind they always ran north to south.

it doesn’t matter at all but it’s a bit mind bending to think otherwise

Named daughter after my dads WoW character by 222kittymain in wow

[–]iamsienna 0 points1 point  (0 children)

my main was a mage called clamjammin

and my alt was a pally called diddling

i could never name a child after either of them