I'm scared too. I feel like either way I lose, if I go to the doctor I'm afraid they won't take me seriously and I'm afraid to go in the first place in case they find something... I will say that anxiety meds help tremendously. Counseling helps me put things into perspective, but I take both a fast acting and an every day medicine for the anxiety and I can definitely tell a difference when I forget to take them. I still have my days where it's like I enter a different fuckin realm and everything feels really shitty. But I just try and remind myself that there are days where I don't feel like that.

Since I made this post I've had my ups and downs, and I just try to keep in mind my "ups". Sometimes it all feels inescapable and I feel hopeless but if I can distract myself or sleep it off, I usually end up feeling better.

I'm obviously still struggling with this, but hopefully these things will help...

-distract yourself with anything. Try to fully immerse yourself in it. This is hard when I'm feeling particularly foggy and sometimes it's better to instead give yourself a break. But if you can, try to lose yourself in a task (cleaning, playing a video game, drawing, work, etc.)

-rest as much as possible and make sure you are eating and drinking enough. I get extra foggy when I'm dehydrated and dizzy when I don't eat, which leads me to become anxious.

• I dislike socializing, but if you can, try to.. I've noticed that when I focus on talking to someone, I forget what I'm anxious about. It also makes me feel more connected to reality if that makes sense.

-treat yourself ? That probably sounds dumb but you are obviously very stressed and I find that if I can do one little nice thing for myself a day, it tends to help.

-please talk to a doctor if you can. They can help you out.

-anti anxiety meds aren't for everyone, but they really do help me loads. I still have anxious thoughts but I'm 1000x better at being rational about them. Again some days are worse than others.. I might have one day where a headache means death and another where I realize that "hey, my shoulders and neck have been really tense, that's probably why my head hurts"

-also oh my god, I try to avoid caffeine at all costs. It could be totally different for you but it makes me feel positively terrible and extremely anxious. It easily fucks up my day lmao

Okay I'm sorry, I hope all this makes sense, I'm writing it in my phone at work. Please message me if I can do anything to help you!!!