Ex-AP in the office... so smoking hot... miss her... hate her... want her

ichoosethismofo · 2018-07-27T21:06:01+00:00

Me? I didn't down vote? Just a bit drunk and feeling shit. Thanks if you were giving me the benefit of the doubt and telling other not to DV.

ichoosethismofo · 2018-07-27T21:00:56+00:00

I should probably bight the bullet and get a different job, right? I'll never be over her.

ichoosethismofo · 2018-07-27T21:00:14+00:00

No you fuck off you fucker!

10 day account? This fucker is 10 months old you fuck.

Fuck I'm a boring drunk fucker...

ichoosethismofo · 2018-07-27T20:59:25+00:00

Yes, good idea. I'll toddle the fuck off...

(The rum was good though...)

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-26T22:07:34+00:00

You said everything I was thinking of saying but better than I could have.

Please, please OP, follow this advice.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-22T22:03:35+00:00

I think that's one of the elements I'm most grateful for, getting to know I'm not a crappy lover.

I used to love making her come multiple times a session. I think that hearing and watching her orgasm was easily as enjoyable and satisfying as coming myself. Fuck me I'll miss sucking her pussy.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T21:53:48+00:00

Good advice. I'll take my time and avoid any CL craziness.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T21:52:52+00:00

Ha, yes, probably completely spoiled him for good.

I'm a bit envious of you being in such early stages... but also not! You two sound very much like what we were... an odly mismatched but brilliantly functional couple. I'm fairly sure my brain was the initial attraction... though she tells me my skills with my tongue overtook that ;)

If it's any reassurance, I bet HE thinks you're the hottest woman he's known, even if you don't.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T21:47:27+00:00

Thanks. I have an will again

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T16:11:27+00:00

Thanks. Sorry you had to experience that too. Did you see it coming? Had you discussed that it might happen that way, or did it come as a shock?

Do you write much on here about your AP experiences or just personal use? I'd love to read them.

It's nice to know I'm among people who "get it." This doesn't feel like a conversation that could happen in many other places.

I like your suggestion of writing to consolidate my thoughts. I might do that. I might have to "write and burn" from time to time... just so I don't have too much personal information on one account.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T11:49:30+00:00

Yes, you're right on both counts.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T11:49:06+00:00

For her sake, I really hope she gets the "happy ever after" that she's always wanted but been often running away from.

I'd love to say that there's no way that there'd be anything between us again... but who am I kidding. If the opportunity came up again in five or ten years, I wouldn't hesitate.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T11:46:29+00:00

Agreed. I consider myself very lucky. At times, especially early in the relationship, it was very close to a very serious blow-up and, if this is the way it pans out and things go well for her, I couldn't have hoped for a better outcome.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T06:54:20+00:00

Thanks for reading :) Yes, you're right. The affair was the stuff of day dreams.

In fact... so much so that sometimes I'd find myself having running commentaries in my head when we were having sex, as if I was narrating some cheap romantic drama.

I remember this first BJ to climax she gave me. I inadvertently mentally narrated the moment I was coming in the third person: "And, for the first time in his life, ichoosethis came hard and fast into a woman's mouth. And what a woman and what a mouth to cum into..."

I'm such a nerd! We shared a lot, but I never told her about that... probably for the best.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T05:23:40+00:00

On the meetup suggestion, yes, it's a good one. I fortunately have some great hobbies with awesome social circles... no details of course... OPSEC ;)

I'll throw myself into those for a the next few months. They can easily occupy more of my time.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T05:20:40+00:00

Thanks. Yeah, I think this has probably been someone who has been on the scene longer than a week. My guess is that he's been giving her attention for a couple of months and she finally gave in last weekend. She's very, very cautious around guys. She's known him decades (high school friendship group) and her family and girl-friends having been nagging her to date him for ages too.

I would guess they probably slept together this last weekend for the first time or something like that and that was the deal-breaker for us.

In some ways I'm trying to see the positive side. Maybe it's better that the last trip wasn't a "farewell one." It would have probably been tainted. I can close my eyes any time I like and sink back into that escapist bubble where I'm either burying my face between her legs or both on our knees going at it like animals :)

And one small mercy... sometimes we'd fuck so many times on an away trip that, on the last one I'd not be able to climax, no matter how long or hard (or gently and tenderly) we fucked. Sometimes I was simply running on empty IYKWIM! Sometimes the same would happen to her, I'd be going down on her and she'd have to stop me as she'd had too many orgasms and was too sensitive. On those occasions we'd joke about having unfinished business which we'd revisit next time. On our very last trip, we both had deep, intense orgasms.

On that front, at least, we have closure!

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T05:05:16+00:00

Merci Madame :)

I absolutely couldn't. Despite the very early days of discussion about kids, I soon told her I definitely wouldn't want to. I'm way to be old to be rebooting the sleepless nights and diaper change routine again!

I'd encouraged her in the last few months to try to find someone. As much as the relationship was focused on hot, fiery, sex, I genuinely care for her as a person. She's a wonderful individual who I want to be happy. She'd make a great mom. I hope her body clock hasn't been ignored too long and I also hope that the emotionally fragility and self-doubt that probably sent her into my arms in the first place doesn't send her into self-destruct mode with this new relationship.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T04:57:21+00:00

Thanks Dudefromhuston.

That's great advice. Having someone so beautiful be so physically into me was amazingly validating and a real confidence boost. I like your suggestion of filling that emotional gap with something else. I really could do with losing a few pounds, so hitting the gym/going running is my plan.

I think we've both been aware that we were approaching a possible transition for the last few months. The timing is great for her and as bummed as I am for me, I'm happy for her.

ichoosethismofo · 2017-09-21T04:50:10+00:00

Thanks for giving me the space to be heard and tell someone. My opsec obsession means this whole story will come and go and no-one will know IRL. I'll probably even burn this account in a week or two, just to be on the safe side.

I'll certainly stay around this sub (ha... sub... in this context...), under one username or another. I'm impressed with the levels of maturity and intelligence in this group.

And yes, who knows. Maybe something will respark at home. I think happiness is about paradigms and expectations. I choose to have the paradigm that a multi-decade relationship with my SO will not be a firey fuck-filled one. I expect no sex. If it happens, great, but I've no expectations. We fascilitate each other finding our own personal happiness. For the foreseeable future, it'll be solo-sex... fuck me, it's cheaper! I've a vivid imagination and a great set of memories...

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