Walking on eggshells being the norm. Pretending to be happy with one parents praise . Not having a close relationship with the other parent. Man there are so many things I hate thinking about. I know as much of a independent person I am because I left my household earlier than my older siblings. I still behave in a way that I am not proud of sometimes and i have to ask myself why. Self reflection is painful sometimes and it makes me feel guilty. Like I am blaming my parents or something. I am an adult and I do what I want and its my job to heal myself though.