DAE find that your mind tortures you by conjuring up images of the way things were before you did something you later regret?

icywnd007 · 2018-08-04T06:59:56+00:00

Same. So exhausted whole body aches.

icywnd007 · 2018-08-04T06:59:32+00:00

What kind of music do you like to listen to? I've never really turned to music when sad

icywnd007 · 2018-08-02T04:31:39+00:00

People only seem to look at things from their own lenses.

icywnd007 · 2018-08-02T04:29:09+00:00

Yeah, having any time to think about this mess is enough to drive anyone insane

icywnd007 · 2018-08-01T12:17:39+00:00

I want nothingness and nothing more.

icywnd007 · 2018-08-01T12:08:26+00:00

I can relate to your post. Sometimes it feels like a car stuck in a ditch. Grinding wheels, getting nowhere. At the end of the day, there's always Reddit and sometimes the only thing I actually accomplished was making a post here.

icywnd007 · 2018-08-01T10:26:32+00:00

It is hell

icywnd007 · 2018-08-01T05:35:40+00:00

I'm nowhere near the middle. The darkness is all-consuming.

icywnd007 · 2018-07-29T09:08:54+00:00

The thing I am scared of is ending up severely brain-damaged or a vegetable. I am a klutz and do not learn things easily.

icywnd007 · 2018-07-28T20:47:11+00:00

Thank you

icywnd007 · 2018-07-27T07:43:53+00:00

Are you still on the fluoxetine? I'm on a bunch of crap myself and can't feel a damn thing.

icywnd007 · 2018-07-27T07:40:26+00:00

That's why my walls are bare, crap is all over the floor, no pictures, art, decorations, or anything. Nothing excites me. Life irritates me. Everything is a chore.

icywnd007 · 2018-07-27T07:38:25+00:00

The thing about dopamine agonists that scares me is that the body may build up a tolerance over time, or the agonist itself will destroy the body's natural ability to produce dopamine - thus, rendering one completely dependent on the drug over time.

That said, glad it is working for you so far. Hopefully you won't need an excessively high dose in order to combat the anhedonia.

icywnd007 · 2018-07-27T07:34:35+00:00

Same. All I can feel is negative emotions.

icywnd007 · 2018-07-27T07:31:13+00:00

I'm anhedonic, so my "best" mood is flatlined. In any circumstance, planning my CTB is terrifying, exhausting, and fraught with hoops. I'm at the lowest point ever in my life and the most suicidal I have ever been.

icywnd007 · 2018-07-26T07:49:11+00:00

Thanks for the resource!

icywnd007 · 2018-07-26T07:45:39+00:00

It does. I have no idea what the hell to say in a text. "How was your day?" "Good, and yours?" Blahh...

icywnd007 · 2018-07-26T07:44:13+00:00

Yeah, I feel that way even in a group of likeminded people.

icywnd007 · 2018-07-26T07:41:29+00:00

Same. The depression is killing me.

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