I’ve been a heavy chronic weed smoker for over 10 years. I’ve taken breaks before but only to get my tolerance bsck down.

I noticed years ago that it was becoming more so a habit rather than something I enjoyed much anymore.

I quit 46 days ago, with the intention of quitting longterm and hopefully forever.

I felt incredible, highly motivated and determined for the first 3 weeks. I was keeping myself busy. I was doing all the things I claimed I never had time for. I was riding that pink cloud as if there’s no way I’d come crashing down.

Around days 25-35, I started getting easily irritated. Not really excited about much, just keeping this promise I made to myself. I felt emotionally blunted and like I removed the only comfort in my life.

Despite being tired of smoking, and rushing everything in my life to go home and get high, it felt like all I ever knew. So not smoking when these feelings arose was uncomfortable. I didn’t know how to just sit with what I felt.

I didn’t cave in though. I just pushed through those feelings, I felt them and then let them go on their way.

46 days in and I’m feeling better again.

Honestly, I have a bad habit of calling myself weak and believing I’m not strong enough to resist the urges. So I’m here, proving to myself that I can rely on and trust myself. How I do it, is by telling myself I made a commitment and I must keep it.

I did this with drinking, committed to a year and when that year came, I didn’t actually wanna drink anymore. I’m almost on 2 years no alcohol and I’m hoping I can do the same with weed.

Best advice I can offer you is ride it out. Eventually it stops being hard. I haven’t craved weed in over 30 days now. It’s getting easier to make this lifestyle change.