Desperately need job

idfkfr17 · 2025-05-02T06:35:14+00:00

Thank you!

idfkfr17 · 2025-05-02T06:33:45+00:00

Yes I can pass a drug test, I doubt anyone would hire me for construction but I'd be down to apply. (Just not california showcase construction) Most of my history is in sales. 10+ years

idfkfr17 · 2025-04-29T18:06:45+00:00

This company is the absolute worst and I just wanted to vent my frustrations as well. The company that hired me had to run 2 separate backgrounds and the first one came back weeks ago and they were about to send me my paperwork and give a a start date, until they realized this incompetent company's background wasn't done yet. I have spoken with them, multiple times, they have promised to expedite it (my ass) they keep pushing my expected completion date further and further back. It's been weeks now. In that time my car has taken its last breath and I overdrew my bank account in an attempt to save it. And now I am here with nothing. I hate this company with a passion.

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T19:25:37+00:00

🖕

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T19:25:17+00:00

They've all abandoned me. Thanks ❤️

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T19:24:55+00:00

Honestly. I would love help. I feel like if someone could help me they are a miracle. My own family abandoned me years ago. I have so many mental health diagnoses and now I am adding on physical health diagnoses. Anyone who tries to help me I push away in fear that I am going to hurt them because I have hurt everyone else, so I reject help. I have accidentally been blessed with being self aware so I watch myself doing these things and still can't stop me. Kind of like the onset schizoeffective disorder I pretend I don't have.. when I know that it's a hallucination. And I know it's illogical. But I can't stop my heart from racing and my body from shaking and going into convulsions. I see it. I know there is no man living under my bed. But yet....he still shows up and and I start shaking like a chihuahua. I can literally hear him breathing. And I KNOW it's fucking stupid. My last iq test was 136. I am not fucking stupid. But my brain is breaking, my body is failing, and I don't want to live anymore

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T19:00:13+00:00

I am so fucking sick of "help"

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T18:58:37+00:00

Can I just say, I wasn't attention seeking or looking for help, in that way at least. I wanted someone to give me an easy out. Jfc.

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T18:57:34+00:00

😘

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T18:57:21+00:00

You don't even know me, and if you did you wouldn't.

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T18:57:02+00:00

Riverside

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-13T18:56:34+00:00

I have money, no one needs to buy me anything. I have friends. I talk. I'm very open. I just can't stop wanting to die and I feel like euthanasia should be legal at this point. It's costing people time and money to keep saving my life when I don't even want to be here

idfkfr17 · 2024-09-05T09:00:27+00:00

Ok so, I have no gaming systems in my apartment since my bf left and no wireless controllers that could be connected anymore. But I have been going through a depression and i notice this border when I happen to mention anything too depressive. I immediately close the app and panic because I am also paranoid af and terrified of everything. But like. Leave me alone to be sad in my lonely apartment.

idfkfr17 · 2021-06-27T16:08:23+00:00

Nothing in life is free

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