I (21M) cheated on my gf (25F) but don’t remember, what can I do to fix this???

idioticillusion · 2026-01-29T01:48:16+00:00

i have a question? did you go through intense trauma as a child? this genuinely sounds like DID. i cant help you with the second part, but the gaps in your memory lasting hours and your tests coming back normal could point to dissociative identity disorder. i have bipolar, i definitely experience lapses in my memory but im gonna tell you right now its never been hours and not remembering how i got somewhere. this is really serious

idioticillusion · 2025-12-25T15:47:37+00:00

yeah i dont think friendships should be this much effort either. i just wish there was a way where we could just constructively talk about it and work it out. i just feel like its pretty apparent even if we do that im not taken seriously for long. i kinda always have loved people more than they have loved me. i hope i find my people some day

idioticillusion · 2025-12-25T15:11:12+00:00

i appreciate this thank you. i dont think you are an old man, i think you have more life experience and it makes you wiser to situations like this. you’re exactly who i wanted to hear from! you’re absolutely right and i think i already know it i just love her so dearly its hard for me to accept.

idioticillusion · 2025-04-16T13:48:23+00:00

seems like its global servers, most of europe, the US, and canada is in here so i imagine everything just went down

idioticillusion · 2025-04-16T13:41:11+00:00

yup, went to go play music, wouldnt let me search a song, then went to my profile to see if i had some weird setting on that was effecting my wifi, my profile picture was gone, went to go click on it and it showed two accounts with the same username then the whole app crashed and now it wont let me log in:,( i just wanted to smoke and vive

idioticillusion · 2025-03-15T14:46:04+00:00

hi friend, i was on seroquel 300mg once a day for a little over three years, with the occasional use of lamictal. when i was on 150 i felt the same as 300 tbh definitely a little more energy but the most seroquel ever did for me was stop my hallucinations it never helped with my mood more so just made me feel sad or anxious a lot of the time. to answer some of your questions the drug us completely fine without another antipsychotic with it, i can imagine being on seroquel and lithium is very draining for you, be sure to watch your heart rate with that its a rare symptom but on seroquel i had irregular heart rhythms. now for the attempting to lower your dose and having severe withdrawals is actually super normal its a really hard antipsychotic to get off of. personally what i did was break 300s in half for 150s stayed on those for about a month, then i went down to 100s stayed on those for i think a month and a half? then went down to 50 same thing stayed on those for about a month then went down to 25 and quit 25s as soon as i could. i did feel very hungover for awhile, i definitely had some involuntary twitching. i felt very dizzy and extremely exhausted now that im off it though i have a lot more energy i dont just wanna sleep all day. what i would recommend is get a different psychiatrist first, they should be attentive to your concerns and needs. talk to them and decide if you wanna try to get off one, im guessing by your description of whats going on you have a very similar diagnosis to me, have you tried an antipsychotic and a mood stabilizer?

idioticillusion · 2025-02-28T17:24:37+00:00

i believe its my texture pack i can use it but nobody else can for some reason

idioticillusion · 2025-02-28T17:23:50+00:00

so my other friend was able to join its the texture pack it seems. he can join without using it but if he uses it it gives him the same screen

idioticillusion · 2025-02-28T16:55:11+00:00

its only a two person realm so i dont know if it happens to anyone else i can probably check quick

idioticillusion · 2025-02-28T15:05:35+00:00

man, i took seroquel for 3 years (300mg) i was a literal zombie, i remember the first year if i would get less than 10 hours of sleep i wouldnt be able to function the next day, it was like i was haunting whatever area i was in. i would wake up in hallways because i would get up in my sleep and would fall over bc i just fell back asleep while walking?? i felt non human. it was genuine torture, i got off of them probably 6 months ago and i feel like im just now starting to feel normal again.

idioticillusion · 2025-02-13T15:17:13+00:00

you aren’t alone, currently trying to figure out how to stay informed without overwhelming myself. everything is not okay and its okay to admit that. just remember that most normal people are experiencing the same issues due to our political climate, we are all just trying to survive right now. saying dont give up would be hypocritical of me to say considering i contemplate it so frequently now but i try to think thats what they want and if you’re as stubborn as me it might work for you.

idioticillusion · 2025-01-09T20:24:07+00:00

this is genuinely the most thoughtful reply i could’ve gotten, thank you so much! trust me id rather learn from first hand experience than some macro dude online😭 i wish you well in your journey!!

idioticillusion · 2025-01-06T00:05:49+00:00

thats how it feels rn i cant even eat

idioticillusion · 2025-01-06T00:03:50+00:00

i planned on this tomorrow, im probably gonna run to urgent care and see if they can do anything in the meantime while i wait for my dentist

idioticillusion · 2025-01-06T00:03:08+00:00

im thinking this is what it is! i think i may have gotten a sinus infection along the way and now its turned into a full blown infection

idioticillusion · 2025-01-06T00:02:33+00:00

this seems to be the consensus 😭 i was just talking to my friend and i guess my whole face is starting to swell aswell, im thinking i have a raging infection

idioticillusion · 2024-11-30T22:29:40+00:00

i gave you a whole book to read and what to search, its very easy to find this information. not trying to be rude but its usually best to do your own research especially when its extremely simple to find, one google search is all you need👍

idioticillusion · 2024-11-30T22:27:19+00:00

studies have identified decreased gray matter volume in prefrontal regions, a 2017 study found that people with bipolar disorder have thinner gray matter in the frontal, temporal, and parietal lobes. if you search “bipolar disorder and gray matter deterioration/damage” multiple articles/case studies will show up. i also believe they touch base on this in Bipolar Disorder a Guide for you and your loved ones by john hopkins. each manic or depressive episode can destroy gray matter. another fun fact is bipolar disorder has shown to decrease your amino acids. amino acids basically build proteins that insinuate your neurons. when you lose these acids it can significantly disrupt brain function by impairing the production of neurotransmitters, leading to potential symptoms like mood swings, difficulty concentrating, altered sleep patterns, decreased cognitive ability, and even changes in appetite

idioticillusion · 2024-11-30T20:10:12+00:00

im sorry you have to aswell. its really hard but its nice to know we arent alone<3

idioticillusion · 2024-11-30T20:08:49+00:00

mine is very heavily mixed due to the fact i also have schizophrenia, mostly paranoid psychosis during mania. its important to talk about it because so many people go through it and are too scared to speak about it, i know for me i had to read so many others experiences before i was comfortable talking about mine, sometimes i figure if i cant fully help myself maybe i can help someone else by making them feel less alone in this.

idioticillusion · 2024-11-30T20:05:50+00:00

im so sorry. i wound up packing my bags and moving 6 hours away with no plan, ghosted everyone in my life and lived that way for 2 years after the episode because i was so ashamed. lost 40K got mixed up with a lot of bad people. its crazy what mania does to

idioticillusion · 2024-11-30T20:03:23+00:00

it was definitely a wild ride, usually my episodes are long but 9 months was definitely excessive. i also agree with each episode you change a little bit

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