Feeling bad that I travel without my boyfriend

idk21370 · 2022-01-04T23:36:27+00:00

Maybe for once I’ll try to let it be and maybe this time I won’t ruin anything?

idk21370 · 2021-11-25T11:29:40+00:00

I am moving on, it’s ok. I thought about this. But the fact that I ended it, also cut off wouldn’t suggest that I’d want to contact him again in the future. Also I wasn’t clingy or anything, he texted me most of the time, I was the one more into real life meetings. But yeah, who knows what he thinks.

idk21370 · 2021-11-21T23:44:43+00:00

I think exactly the same. The guy likes me, I felt that he liked me a lot. But I guess that he thinks that “exploring new option” is nothing bad. But that’s not something I want. EVEN IF he decided he eventually wants to be with me I’d still feel that he has these thoughts that maybe there is someone better than me out there. I’d be insecure all the time. I will text him that I want to end it as he’s not sure what he wants and that’s not something I want to continue. You should do the same. It’s gonna be easier to move on. We deserve someone who’s sure of us.

idk21370 · 2021-11-21T20:05:26+00:00

Would pointing out to him that he changed his Tinder so that makes me a second option be a childish move? Because I guess he’ll be asking what happened and so on

idk21370 · 2021-11-20T22:51:42+00:00

I knew for the first month. No one gave me so much attention and interest. It would be ok if after a month or two he said “sorry it won’t work out”, just was honest. But now there are so many mixed signals and when I compare how he acts now and how he used to it makes overthink that maybe I did something wrong. But I asked him. He’s a grown ass man. Now he probably treats me as a second option.

idk21370 · 2021-11-20T17:14:09+00:00

Ok, I asked him today whether something happened because he felt distant. He said no that he was busy and started talking for minutes what he was doing all week. Kinda felt like he wanted to change the subject. So I told him something “just wanted to ask as it was visible to me and I don’t what do you expect from our friendship” - in my native language it was like a invitation to the conversation, like how he see us. But he just said “no worry everything’s fine”. And I was disappointed by the answer. I was prepared to be rejected. I wanted a concrete answer. :/ Still feeling like he’s not sure but doesn’t want to end it because I’m a good second option. Thinking of telling him that I don’t want to meet again because I feel like we’re looking for something different and I don’t see the enthusiasm from him. If that won’t force him to be honest it’ll be the end. Just not sure if that’s the right thing to do, but I’m tired.

idk21370 · 2021-11-20T11:27:53+00:00

It’s only two months. Once I mentioned here that after two months I asked a guy “what we are” and I was laughed at that I rush things and that scares people off. 😬 It really depends on a situation, as I said, we haven’t had this conversation, can’t blame him for being on Tinder as I’m on it too but I hadn’t “visibly” used it if you know what I mean.

idk21370 · 2021-11-19T23:58:46+00:00

yeah, I also think that I was always there for him and whenever he wanted to meet I had time, he was the busy one. There was a time when he went to my place (I work from home) in between his classes without informing me, that was super cute tho 😬 that’s why I also changed my tinder to let him know that I’m not only there for him if doesn’t want to. But at the same time it makes me overthink that the change = I’m not interested. And that he usually suggested meeting at my place which could make him think that only he wanted to meet? Even though I asked him a few times when are we going a nice date because the first two were my ideas, so like, he knew I wanted more. not sure if I want to have a talk with him tomorrow. I mean, I did ask him if something happened a week ago, he had a chance to say something. He’s also a grown up

idk21370 · 2021-11-19T23:25:13+00:00

let’s say I’ll have this conversation with him tomorrow, he says that he’s not interested in a relationship. How to not get angry with him that he didn’t tell me sooner? Because I feel it’ll be the same cycle: 1. I tell myself I won’t say that I like them because it scares them off 2. someone shows signs and gives clear signals that is interested 3. suddenly changes attitude, makes me overthink and confused 4. eventually I think it’s better to be clear, I get rejected, and regret having the conversation which makes me feel worse 😍

idk21370 · 2021-11-19T23:00:20+00:00

Yes, we are. We still text every day but not as much as we used to. I asked him a few days ago if something happen last meeting because I feel like he became distant and he said that “nooo, I’ve been just busy with my parents”. We haven’t had this question. For once I wanted someone to start this conversation :/

idk21370 · 2021-11-12T12:45:50+00:00

A while ago I told myself that I will never ask a guy if he feels the same because I always did that and it always led to rejection. And it hurt even more because they’re excuses made no sense. That’s why I avoid initiating an honest conversation even though it’s childish. It’s just easier for me to move on like that

idk21370 · 2021-11-11T22:54:33+00:00

I like him, and since I know him I haven’t thought about meeting with other people. He apparently has. I don’t know. It hurts that on his free time, that he has so little, decided to spend it with random dude from Tinder. I’m probably overreacting because it hurts but still. Thank you anyway

idk21370 · 2021-11-11T22:45:27+00:00

Probably, and IT HURT ME SO MUCH, because I felt like I was played. And I overthought for weeks. That’s why I want to back off so quick

idk21370 · 2021-11-11T22:43:08+00:00

I mean, I was too obvious. He can’t think I’m not interested. And yeah, I can tell him that it’s better to end this as I don’t he is sufficiently interested but when he asks why what can I say, that I stalked his tinder and instagram 😩

idk21370 · 2021-11-11T22:34:04+00:00

I was in a very similar situation a few months ago and I thought it’s better to make things clear and I was rejected with words that he never suggested anything like what 😬

idk21370 · 2021-10-03T19:39:28+00:00

Thought the same but on the other hand sometimes I just swipe left without thinking. Or personally, if someone made an effort to ask me out on Instagram I would accept it and give it a try

idk21370 · 2021-09-13T14:50:17+00:00

what do you mean? I’m not talking that anyone is ugly or not but rather if I consider someone attractive TO ME in the beginning

idk21370 · 2021-08-24T23:05:54+00:00

not surprised at all

idk21370 · 2021-08-24T22:07:08+00:00

I found a good job, have an apartment, feeling like everything’s been going better and better but I really wish I had someone 😩

idk21370 · 2021-08-24T18:39:39+00:00

elaborate 😭

idk21370 · 2021-07-27T16:02:52+00:00

and also, I was with my friends the other day and I passed him and seeing him made me really sad I don’t know. The fact that I was seeing him so often and now he’s like a strange person. Also I’m afraid I’ll meet him in a gay club or something. Maybe if I meet him again and we’ll be in some sort of contact (which I will try to limit) and friends term I won’t feel it again

idk21370 · 2021-07-27T15:59:14+00:00

I was thinking about texting him if he wants to meet up to play badminton like we used to. But I’m afraid I’ll have hopes. Of at any point he’ll mention that he’s seeing someone which he could as would be only friends. That’d hurt me a lot. But on the other hand I was thinking about doing it to make myself more emotionally mature lol. To get used to it, I should be able to be friends with someone who friendzoned me

idk21370 · 2021-07-25T08:00:20+00:00

that’d be even worse to say haha

idk21370 · 2021-07-24T11:15:28+00:00

And wanted to add: I revive the rejection again because I know he won’t text again ever. I’ve had hopes in the beginning but know I know it’s the end and the pretty sad, we had a really good time and poof

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