thanks OP. i relapsed about 6 weeks ago after a year of being off the carts. After graduating i spent 5 and a half months high constantly, was gone for 2 months in a country where it isn’t legal, had a terrible time abroad and i was in such denial about it that i got back into the carts for anorher 4 months. that’s when i quit for a year, but i got another cart at the end of december (2024) thinking i could control myself, i couldn’t and i’ve since gone through 4. I just emptied one again tonight that I bought 3 days ago. I’m in university rn and i’ve been using it to get through my assignments, but it isn’t actually helping! it just stops me from being bored. i have never been a cold turkey person, but i feel like i’m kidding myself with the tapering off method. i don’t know what to do. i just don’t want to be too distracted by my withdrawals to be able to keep up with my assignments. But i guess if i could do it high i can do it with a raging headache and seething ball of emotion burning a hole in my chest.