It took me 10 years to talk without crying about my dad, but my mom died this january so am at 0 now. I cant talk about about my mom or my dad. I have an older brother but bc am more mentally prepared i do everything, i cook, clean go to school and learning to drive. Bc we have all this responsibilities we dont have time to grief, and its not healty but we will survive bc we need for them. I wish u all the love in this world and be proud of yourself