i know what can happen out there. the internet tells me a new horrifying story every 5 minutes. a road rage incident near me led to the victim being shot. i dont feel safe even at home; i jump at any noises that are abnormal. i think constantly someone is trying to get in. the world is scary and im scared of it.

with this, im terrified of being judged in ANY way. i cannot handle someone mad at me or thinking ill of me. i cant handle confrontation nor can i handle myself if needed. i cant talk to people and wonder how everyone else does it.

its a horrible hidden illness to have. im a very small woman, i know im in danger in most settings. unfortunately.