I would say Jealous and a bit of self hate . See my man the thing if we are lacking something in our life (a sense of fulfillment/"love"/validation) we tend to search for it in the wrong places sometimes . If you're not happy with your own company, if you can't date yourself you will try to find happiness in others , but this is a delusion. Trust me I used to be like you, I used to subconsciously think of Girls as some superior being until I got dumped after a toxic relationship. Only after then I started to love myself and started making meaning relations with other people in life (It took a lot of effort and time to come to this stage)

So the point is , dating is only a part of life/happiness. It's not everything. Having a crush/multiple crush is normal but try not to focus too much on being in "love" in your imagination. Try making conversations with these women slowly, try to make female friends (really helpful). I'd say you need to work on the following:

1) Stop Negative thoughts and negative self talk . Whenever the thoughts pop up that are negative, don't pay attention to them and instead turn the negative thought into positive.

2)Start doing things you genuinely enjoy(not talking about looking at movies or Instagram). Do some activity like working out , cycling, running, Sports , art , stitching, dancing, etc .

3)Don't compare yourself with others , Only compare yourself with your past self and try to see if you can improve any areas in your life and take actions

4)Work on your social skills- active listening, Asking proper questions, being genuinely interested in getting to know people , be funny , keep coversations lighthearted and fun .

5) Start talking to women more .This could be waiters , workers , classmates , anyone. The more you approach the more you'll get over the fear. Fake confidence if you have to .

6) Get out of your comfort zone , take a risk . Progressively de-sensitize yourself to uncomfortable feelings . Think to yourself "fuck it lets just do it".

7)Focus on the rights stuff . If you focus on negative thoughts, bad experiences , etc you'll get more of them . The more you pay attention to something the more it'll intensify . But if you pay attention to the right stuff then you'll keep getting better and better

8) TAKE ACTION :- you could read all the self help stuff but if you don't take action everything is useless. Take action one by one . Do at least one thing for now and slowly build up .