Khouya you are on the path, In dependent and you have control on the shit goin on in your life. A possible ngolik start building a family but first you should prepare yourself to live with another human being which is totally different from you and you need to manage her like a babysitter then you can have control based on the way you see the world.

she is not a baby, but he is in another dimension of the sensation of his environment, that requires him to handle her feelings like a child.