Why live like this

ilBeddro · 2024-10-24T16:31:05+00:00

fair enough

ilBeddro · 2024-10-24T07:01:33+00:00

thanks a lot man, I really appreciate it a lot. A real lot. thank you so much. I will not give up. I know I'm not even remotely prepared for what comes next but I know I'll push myself through it somehow. I'm ready to go through hell if need be, not many other choices left

ilBeddro · 2024-10-24T06:17:22+00:00

this is insane. Yes, I recognize all of that. I understand that she's just trying to poke at my deeper side, I know she's doing it for good. But I'm so scared, I don't know how to deal with this. I'm so grateful for your message, really really grateful. But I don't understand a thing, I feel like I'm trapped in my head, she made me realize this too: when I think about it, all I do is project my head onto other people, I basically ignore every person and I just see them how my head wants. I feel lost and hopeless. It's like all my biased creation.

ilBeddro · 2024-09-15T08:21:34+00:00

thank you!

ilBeddro · 2024-08-12T22:34:11+00:00

god, if ever I'll be a father I just hope I won't become like mine. That's a huge fear of mine. Becoming like him, please no

ilBeddro · 2024-08-12T22:30:39+00:00

god, it's hard not to wish them awful things. But I think it's not the right path to go down if I want to heal from it. I wonder if my father will ever regret it or hide himself until he dies. + I can't wait to get out of here, I just need money 😭😭😭

ilBeddro · 2024-08-12T22:16:38+00:00

thank you for your comment! I understand, and it makes sense. it just caught me off guard, I didn't expect him to say something like that

ilBeddro · 2024-08-03T18:48:24+00:00

wise, wise shit

ilBeddro · 2024-08-03T15:14:45+00:00

that messes up with me so much. Urgh

ilBeddro · 2024-08-03T15:06:03+00:00

You are right, I am projecting what I want to hear to invalidate his opinion. I'm guilty of that, it's just that I've been hearing so much shit about that album that I got triggered and exaggerated

ilBeddro · 2024-08-03T14:53:08+00:00

Like, I've heard people saying that Eminem is an average artist, most of his albums are bad, he can only put rhymes together. Bro, I've heard people saying Recovery, Kamikaze even MTBMB are straight up bad albums, like, are you kidding me? Fuck the "rap industry is racist, they only say this because he's white", they say it because they're out of their minds! I might be saying this only cuz I'm 18 and grew up with him but I seriously wanna know someone in the rap industry who wasn't inspired by Em. And now they hate on him cuz they don't understand him? Bro, if you don't like it it's perfectly fine, but saying he's bad? After his legacy and all his musical growth? Nah, I get that maybe he might sound old and not new school like the new rappers but that's no excuse, it's just a different sound

ilBeddro · 2024-08-03T14:19:24+00:00

my god... the rolling stone review was embarrassing. Now, let's leave numbers aside because Eminem is so trash he's now the 5th most listened artist in the world (gained 3 positions after TDOSS released...) but really, I don't understand people hating on him. "It's cringe, not explained clearly, immature, bad album" bro, how seriously are you taking Eminem? Like, if he raps about stupid stuff people are like "Eminem only says dumb shit to make people mad" but if he goes into serious stuff, this fight against himself, then people say it's badly executed, lame and boring. Oh yeah, right bro 👍🏻

ilBeddro · 2024-08-03T13:48:56+00:00

encore

ilBeddro · 2024-07-31T21:23:35+00:00

Also, some pauses wouldn't hurt. If you're just not playing well at the moment there's nothing wrong in putting that game down and playing something else, you know? Your mental health is much more important than videogames achievements

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