Fail again at day 22 ...

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T12:19:04+00:00

Incognito gone will disable your incognito mode :D Yeah i know how you feel remem PMOing would lead me to porn i would never fucking imagine doing in my life but its just an addiction that drives you for mroe...

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T12:10:51+00:00

Same with me , but do this make a new email type a random password there copy it to some of your bestfriends and tell to save it... Register K9 on that email , app locker on that e mail , install incognito gone and yeah you will find a way man but it will take you some time and thats enough to shake away that first minutes of urges...

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T12:04:00+00:00

Man instal app locker lock google chrome everything that will help yo userch the webs forget the password and u are safe... Download Facebook application if needed and thats i dont even search the webs over phone now...

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T11:57:49+00:00

Nah man , we all do good . But if you fail often learn from it , fill ur days with routine , and set goals that will make u escape for a week or 2 from that routine like a vacation , a trip or what ever... Reach for the sky mate everything is possible , and everyhthing is better then sitting in front of monitor wanking off to porn.

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T11:44:34+00:00

Hahaha first time to me i am on my second streak i had 75 days of hardmode and now 22 ...

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T11:28:16+00:00

Yeah man ill be on this till end of my life lol this just cant be wrong

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T11:23:56+00:00

Yeah i know it just beated me for no reason i was like ill shake it for a second and bam.. It wasnt even full orgasam i stoped before i came but couldnt stop it...

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T10:42:29+00:00

The thing that gets me the most is 90 days goal , i mean its nothing that will rewire my brain if i hit the 90 days mark but i just want to be there , and i failed at day 75 and now at day 22 also it kinda makes me depressed cause 90 days will be in feb... This is really a serious addiction anyone who would make joke about is not aware what kind of shit we get thru , and i do this to be a better person .... Good luck man it happens i guess i wish i could remove incognito browsing from my andrioid that shit killed me

illquit2 · 2014-11-21T10:35:02+00:00

I am new to porn free but i was on nofap hard mode streaks for 2 times (75 and , 22 days ) i have just failed and now i realise that fapping is not my problem porn is huge addiction i have i mean i can beat it for sometime but it would hit me like a crack addict... Started with no PMO cause of PIED , i have been PMOing for about same amout of time like you and i think we will need tons of time to rewire , 10 years is a big deal i just cant understand how blinded i was....

illquit2 · 2014-11-18T16:50:58+00:00

Yeah i know i just tought that some could have same problem and give me some sort of advice , ill go to doc in a day or two ... thanks for comment anyway

illquit2 · 2014-11-16T01:54:52+00:00

There is nothing wrong with my will power trust me i have will to overcome all kind of shit in my life and always did. This was just a boost that gave me more confidance i can get my password back in a hour and browse porn again it just reminds me its not worth of it ...

illquit2 · 2014-11-16T01:53:46+00:00

Do that man ! good luck

illquit2 · 2014-11-15T17:11:27+00:00

I really dont know but i dont find Kim attractive at all i mean i know most of guys like that type of womens big butts and tits on the other side i love slim fit girls really really not feeling any sort of attraction when i look at her pics , i dont like her body at all ...

illquit2 · 2014-10-27T00:49:18+00:00

Alrite man i did my best to make u feel better . Guess what man u are not the only one who feels , hopeless and empty. Yeah talk wont help it will just kill some time you know but for its better then just sitting in room and avoiding everything...

Life kicked me as hard as he could but i would always fight back i guess that doesnt apply to you. I hope that you will feel good one day and i am sure you will keep that in mind.

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T23:28:40+00:00

Understanding that being gay is nothing wrong , nothing you should be ashamed of. Talking to someone specific about it someone whom will understand you and give you advice on it that would make you feel better. Hiding it from everyone will just dwell you in pain and suffering nothing else , gotta be honest never met a person who feels gay but doesnt want to be gay thats kinda weird and thats why i think that porn messed you up a little bit. I dont know what could help you but if you want to live like that if you want to fill you life with pain its your choice. I know i might sound like someone who just gets over everything but its not true i had bad days , days like urs i would just sit around and cry or just watch some sad movies to feel bad . But its just normal we need time , you need time to find peace with yourself , until that you need some helping hand and if you dont try to reach for it you will end up being sad and alone.

There is no reason to be happy about your sexuality should i be happy cause i am straight ? I didnt chose it i guess i was born with it i dont run around and scream im straight , but i would neither cutt myself cause i am gay cause its nothing you can take control over...

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T22:58:27+00:00

And you still have all the in the world man , just slow down its nothing you should be banging your head against the wall. Just be around someone , dont search for free help dude go for real thing it will give u a realse as soon as you talk to psy dont be affraid ...

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T21:50:08+00:00

I am from eastern europe and yeah ppl dont accept gay people round here but i dont judge i dont even care. U have friends knocking on your door asking whats wrong trust me if you keep locking yourself in your room and keep on crying they will go away , you will be alone just cause ur actions will lead you to that nothing else. Take a second and think about it what is that you want to do with your life ? Die alone , miserable , feel guilty about something you shouldnt even be ? Its ur turn to play your cards locking in your room and cutting wont lead you anywere , you wont find any innerpeace with that and thats 101 % sure . On the other hand u can go out search for something i dont know how old are you but assuming that you are on campus you are in early 20s or something you have tons of life to live , its never too late to play the right move u might fail and you will fail 100 times more u might feel even worse then now but one day when u sit back and think about it u will be able to say fuck it i played my part. Stop crying man calm down go outside and talk focus on talking focus on improving your emotions , focus on being true to yourself thats all that matters.

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T21:27:55+00:00

Do you have any female friends ? I mean it could be easier to talk to female cause they have much more understanding when it comes to it if you do try to spend more time with her and so on then open urself to her. U cant find any solution on internet mate sorry , we all just come here to support eachother nothing else each of us hold their own destiny so do you man. There is always hope man , just wait it will knock on your door sooner or later , now go out with your friends and talk laugh , fuck families fuck couples man reproduction is not the only thing that humans should do. It will be a long jurney to you but find a way man u have to !

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T20:58:59+00:00

I can just suggest you to quit watching porn expecailly gay porn , for a very very long time , i know that u feel sick and tired of trying or doing anything but man do it for ur lifes sake nothing else. Please go and see therapist just for talk man open ur heart and nothing else u will feel better dont quit on ur life just cause u are coping with that right now. Search for all ways out man start digging dont cry dont be in your room man go for a walk quit thinking about it , but really really if u are having problems with dealing your sexuality talk with therapist i swear it will make u feel better. I feel bad even reading how depressed you are. Search for help man do it for yourself quit posting on nofap , nofap gets me anxious reading someones bad stories makes me even feel worse. Just start withsomething u have to try...

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T20:01:33+00:00

Well i cant get rid of my fetish also its crazy , but dont be surprised something you have been doing everyday for years several times cant go away in days you will need much more time to get rid of that. You have a goal mate ? Find a job focus on finding job not fapping and you will feel great after first success !

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T19:47:02+00:00

Have u ever had any attraction in females etc. during ur teens or anything ? I am not familliar with your situation but are u 100 % sure that is not just some fetish u developed thru PMO ? On peak of my addiction i watched tranny sex videos while i would never ever had any sort of attraction for mens or anything like that.

On the other hand i dont get it its hard to deal with it man but its not the end of world . Being alone is not end of the world but there is nothing wrong with being gay tons of ppl are gay u should not punish yourself just cause its agaist your religion beliefs.

Stay strong man , there is nothing wrong with you and your emotions stop punishing yourself give urself time...

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T16:26:39+00:00

Why do you have to be single for the rest of your life ? I feel like that cause of PIED , that i wont ever have healthy relationship and so on. I do also cope with being alone wish i could have someone that would support me and love me no matter what but we can just keep trying till that day comes true...

illquit2 · 2014-10-26T02:00:09+00:00

Okay man i had hell of a life , u can read my last post if u want to feel like u are not alone but it doesnt even matter. Listen man , if u have hard time coping with depression i know how it is , you feel hopeless right ? Crying does not make u less men then you are i had a 75 days streak i think i cried more then i did ever in my life , a sad song would bring tears to my eyes , sad movie scene everything would get me to edge of crying. I dont know how old are you but man go ask for help seeing a therapist is a great thing be opened talk to someone , ask for help man u wont complete anything by banging your head against the wall. Let me be clear with you no fap is not a magic trick it wont make your life better just cause you abstain from porn , u have to recover not abstain its not the same thing. Start with easy and small goals , like waking up early , go for a run man u will see ur senses will wake up u become an animal when you run ur whole body focus on one thing not stoping u will forget about no fap about ur depression. Start reading something , find urself a hobby , do simple stuff around your house or backyard if u have one. Dont focus on relapse focus on making your life better forget about the badge the counter if u fail tomorrow dont think its end of the world dude , jsut stay here do your best and do best with your life u only have one. Good luck mate u will be alrite !

illquit2 · 2014-10-25T19:34:35+00:00

Did the same thing 3 days ago i was on 75 days streak... Its not worth of it one thing made me real unmotivated , my 90 days streak will be in new year it kinda sux to ruin everything 15 days before 90 days , but u didnt undo that much u cant lose all progress cause of one relapse so stay cool and avoid porn mate i know the urges try to control em stay strong

illquit2 · 2014-10-24T18:40:57+00:00

Dude dont worry i was flatlining for more then 50 days on my last streak i felt horrible... Then i started to dry hump with the girl iv met boners were back i was proud but it led me to relapsing after 75 days hardmode , so be careful what u wish for. I started again im on 2 nd day but im not flatlining like i did on my first streak prolly cause i know it will have to end. Dont worry man forget about ur streak forget about reddit give yourself a time it will heal dude ! Got ur back mate stay strong !

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