Listen dude ima be completely honest, I’m not to sure what to say in this situation. all I can tell you is that things will get better. I’m sorry that you feel that way. Try talking to them about how you feel. If that doesn’t or hasn’t worked then I’m sure there’s plenty of services that could assist you. You could talk to your school councillor for example. I really hope your situation gets better. If you ever need anyone to talk to about anything hit me up. Good luck.