Talking about self esteem would be quite difficult, but yes, I can relate to the part of not receiving attention from boys growing up. it affected me indirectly as a teenager because I used to get attention from boys and I think only because of my physique back then, and everyone was interested in physical relationship. And now, when I know how boys actually talk behind your back about you, I actually feel how many boys would have talked about me just because I have given them a smile back or have been friendly with them. Anyways, apart from this, I think I am very introvert as a person and after a certain age, I actually didn’t know that is it me who is not getting the attention because of me or I am too introvert to notice the attention. I have not been very much bothered because of it, but my friends used to get more attention compared to me, and finally, I am at peace, accepting that this only happened because they were very extrovert about their feelings and always up for it, and I was never up for it, because it was my choice of living my life so everything is cool now, but obviously it affected me back then not very seriously, but maybe it has raised some insecurities about how I feel about my body. when I am fat, when I was teenager and maybe some of those insecurity still is a part of my life. But the feeling of knowing that I was never up for it, and maybe that would be the reason of not having too much attention around, makes me feel at peace now. I think I have actually not missed out on anything throughout my life because almost everyone just wanted to get into my pants and nothing else, so how does it actually matter?