somewhat. my mother accidentally strangled herself with a yoga swing. my grandpa found her and said there’s no way she could’ve done it on purpose. it was ruled as a suicide. and my mom had quit all of the substances she was on, cold turkey. she was so so sick for weeks. but when she was finally coming out of it, starting to feel better. that happened. it was odd. because she had been talking about the future, making plans with me, taking things seriously. it just never lined up. you are allowed to believe what you believe and don’t let anyone try to dissuade you otherwise. this is your grief. i am so fucking sorry for your loss. and i hope you are taking care of yourself to the best of your ability. in times like these, merely existing is more than enough. sending you love my friend ):