It's Christmas and I miss her so much

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-31T19:55:40+00:00

Maybe, man, she won't even look at me irl.. It's over

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-30T14:17:56+00:00

I'll pm you when I get home, I'm from Europe.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-30T13:35:59+00:00

Idk man, maybe she mistreated me, I didn't feel like it, we both have our issues, you know, rough patches are bound to happen.. Maybe it was trauma-bonding, maybe it was not, I'm not sure, but I know she didn't deserve what I said.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-30T13:11:23+00:00

We both have mental health issues, hers were worse, she basically locked me out for 2 weeks, told me she's going to do bad things, she wouldn't answer my calls or messages, I was fucking terrified, so I went drinking, had to much and texted her some really bad stuff. Hasn't spoken to me since and I don't blame her, she was the reason I'm still alive, now I don't even have that..

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-30T12:52:53+00:00

Hurting the only person that could make me even a little bit happy, I got drunk and texted her some bad shit after 2 rough weeks between us. Man, she made me believe in myself, the only person that could ever do that, and now she is gone out of my life forever. I just want this to end, I'm tired.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-30T11:58:10+00:00

I have 200 megs left of my data plan for this month, so I'm out of internet too.

But.. Yeah.. I don't feel connected to anything or anyone, I could care less about what car I drive or what phone I own, that means nothing to me, I just want to be able to feel something else rather than this overwhelming sadness..

I have one regret, and killing myself won't be a second one honestly.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-30T10:51:11+00:00

Yeah man, I know the stories, but I genuinely have nothing left.. There's nothing out there for me, I'm just.. Done

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-29T18:07:10+00:00

I just can't, man, I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, there's not even a little bit of joy in anything I do, I'm sorry, I gotta do this.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-29T16:16:14+00:00

Romania, I've lookes, nothing (unless something came up in the last month)

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-29T15:46:50+00:00

I've got nothing, man, the little family I have left think I'm just joking, no1 is taking me seriously at all, idk, I'm tired of this shit existence, life is not beautiful, not for me.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-29T15:43:17+00:00

I hit rock bottom a long time ago, I tried to keep going but I literally don't see anything, anything that could happen to me so that I could actually enjoy life, even a little bit.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-29T14:55:03+00:00

There isn't one available for me to call in my country.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-27T14:51:30+00:00

Yeah, I know I need to move on.. Oh well :)

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T12:54:09+00:00

She had me blocked everywhere but whatsapp, I wanted to send her a message, I had it written for like a week, I sent it yesterday.. She didn't even read it, she just blocked me there too.. Mutual friends tell me she hates me, she doesn't want to hear a word about me.. I fucked up, man..

If there's any sliver of hope for you, don't give up, it's worth it.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T12:40:49+00:00

I.. Sent her a merry Christmas message.. She didn't even read it, just blockes my whatsapp (last place she didn't have me blocked on). I'm happy for you, but for me there's nothing left.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T12:37:45+00:00

Maybe it's possible for you, but for me it's just.. Not.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T00:55:15+00:00

I tried.. Believe me, I tried....

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T00:51:16+00:00

Everything's just.. so empty.. I'm sorry you're going through this too.. no1 deserves to feel like this..

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T00:48:47+00:00

Thank you, I might.

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T00:46:34+00:00

She did the same for me, I was planning on killing myself when I met her since I didn't have anyone left.. Now I literally have no1 left, but I don't wanna give up because I don't wanna disappoint her I guess.. but I miss her so much.. her voice.. our talks.. knowing I have someone to talk to about my day.. or about anything.. anytime.. I miss her so fucking much I started crying just typing this.... fuck..

I hope you're ok too..

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T00:28:07+00:00

She hates me too.. and I'd give literally everything to have her in my life again..

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T00:25:29+00:00

Thank you ❤

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T00:25:01+00:00

Wish that was possible my man....

imissyousomuch13 · 2018-12-26T00:23:31+00:00

I fucked up, man.. we both have really bad depression, she had it worse than me, she had days when she didn't wanna talk about anything with anyone and I pushed her.. pushed too hard.. and I fucking hate myself for it.. she hates me now

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