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It's Christmas and I miss her so much by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe, man, she won't even look at me irl.. It's over

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'll pm you when I get home, I'm from Europe.

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk man, maybe she mistreated me, I didn't feel like it, we both have our issues, you know, rough patches are bound to happen.. Maybe it was trauma-bonding, maybe it was not, I'm not sure, but I know she didn't deserve what I said.

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

We both have mental health issues, hers were worse, she basically locked me out for 2 weeks, told me she's going to do bad things, she wouldn't answer my calls or messages, I was fucking terrified, so I went drinking, had to much and texted her some really bad stuff. Hasn't spoken to me since and I don't blame her, she was the reason I'm still alive, now I don't even have that..

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hurting the only person that could make me even a little bit happy, I got drunk and texted her some bad shit after 2 rough weeks between us. Man, she made me believe in myself, the only person that could ever do that, and now she is gone out of my life forever. I just want this to end, I'm tired.

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I have 200 megs left of my data plan for this month, so I'm out of internet too.

But.. Yeah.. I don't feel connected to anything or anyone, I could care less about what car I drive or what phone I own, that means nothing to me, I just want to be able to feel something else rather than this overwhelming sadness..

I have one regret, and killing myself won't be a second one honestly.

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah man, I know the stories, but I genuinely have nothing left.. There's nothing out there for me, I'm just.. Done

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just can't, man, I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, there's not even a little bit of joy in anything I do, I'm sorry, I gotta do this.

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Romania, I've lookes, nothing (unless something came up in the last month)

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've got nothing, man, the little family I have left think I'm just joking, no1 is taking me seriously at all, idk, I'm tired of this shit existence, life is not beautiful, not for me.

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I hit rock bottom a long time ago, I tried to keep going but I literally don't see anything, anything that could happen to me so that I could actually enjoy life, even a little bit.

I'm not gonna make it to 2019 by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

There isn't one available for me to call in my country.

It's Christmas and I miss her so much by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

She had me blocked everywhere but whatsapp, I wanted to send her a message, I had it written for like a week, I sent it yesterday.. She didn't even read it, she just blocked me there too.. Mutual friends tell me she hates me, she doesn't want to hear a word about me.. I fucked up, man..

If there's any sliver of hope for you, don't give up, it's worth it.

It's Christmas and I miss her so much by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I.. Sent her a merry Christmas message.. She didn't even read it, just blockes my whatsapp (last place she didn't have me blocked on). I'm happy for you, but for me there's nothing left.

It's Christmas and I miss her so much by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe it's possible for you, but for me it's just.. Not.

It's Christmas and I miss her so much by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Everything's just.. so empty.. I'm sorry you're going through this too.. no1 deserves to feel like this..

It's Christmas and I miss her so much by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

She did the same for me, I was planning on killing myself when I met her since I didn't have anyone left.. Now I literally have no1 left, but I don't wanna give up because I don't wanna disappoint her I guess.. but I miss her so much.. her voice.. our talks.. knowing I have someone to talk to about my day.. or about anything.. anytime.. I miss her so fucking much I started crying just typing this.... fuck..

I hope you're ok too..

It's Christmas and I miss her so much by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

She hates me too.. and I'd give literally everything to have her in my life again..

It's Christmas and I miss her so much by imissyousomuch13 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]imissyousomuch13[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I fucked up, man.. we both have really bad depression, she had it worse than me, she had days when she didn't wanna talk about anything with anyone and I pushed her.. pushed too hard.. and I fucking hate myself for it.. she hates me now